What Cancer can not do:

Hello everyone! It feels good to be back, semester is over so that’s a relief and will give me a little more time to myself 🙂
Mother’s Day is also around the corner and Im so grateful my momma is here with me to celebrate the wonderful woman she is. You know not so long ago when I found out about her cancer I could feel it destroying me, making me loose hope and faith.However I managed to get it back…
Because the truth is that Cancer can not do many things after all it ends up being the weakest disease there has ever been.
So your probably wondering What is it that cancer can not do?
Well….
Cancer cannot cripple love. There is nothing in the world that can destroy true love, weather its family, or a romantic lover, when the love is true and its that feeling that’s tattooed on your heart it stays there forever weather that person is around or not. The love I have for my mom is so strong that nothing or anyone could ever take that away from me.
Cancer cannot shatter hope. Hope is something that also just lives in your heart because no matter how hard life may be on you at times, if you have hope you truly have everything.
Cancer cannot dissolve faith. Faith is in the air we breath, faith is what keeps many of us going as we remind our selves that things will turn out just the way they need to be.
Cancer cannot destroy peace. If peace is and has always lived within the person, no matter the drama or issues that person manages to relax and view life differently.
Cancer cannot suppress memories. There is nothing in this world that will ever take away any of the memories my mom and I have made and will continue to make together.
Cancer cannot silence courage. I know that from experience being the daughter of the strongest woman I have ever met and watching her fight and destroy all the bad feelings and energies that try to surround her as she makes it known and as it shows in her person that she will not allow anything to stand in her way.
Cancer cannot invade the soul. Having cancer has made my mom relive and remember how lucky she is for another day and how wonderful she is as a person who deserves nothing but the best.
Cancer cannot destroy us and if we feel like it is we must stop it and not allow it. Because you may have been the unlucky one and trust me I know… IT SUCKS! However you can make the best of it reminding yourself how Important everyday is and how grateful you are to be here.
Thank you for reading;
Kbeautifulmind

Today I want to talk about the government….
Ever notice how the lady before you at the grocery store is paying with food stamps and has her nails done and a name brand purse that retails at about 300 at the least?
What about the families with 5 kids also paying with government money and the kids look so dirty but the parents look clean and well put?
or how about how most of the people doing insurance claims or getting some sort of government help are faking and living the good life driving Mercedes and BMWs?
and my least favorite… The “single moms” who claim to be single as they continue to pop out more and more kids in order to get more financial help from the government?
I actually once heard a lady say to someone “It’s my 7th kid but its all good because I’ll be getting me more food stamps” ARE YOU FREAKEN KIDDING ME!?
And they say China should be limited to ONE kid I think some areas in California need some limits…
With all this “Help” some how there is still over 100 million homeless people all over the world as well as this country and no I am not talking about the homeless people in LA who won’t take food or clothes or any type of help that isn’t money because they want the money to get their fix (drugs or alcohol). I am talking about the REAL homeless people who live in areas where there is no governmental help or any “housing” place to go and get a shower, a plate of food, or even a place to sleep.
So what is wrong with that picture here in the United States or to minimize it down what is wrong with the picture here in California?
Well in my opinion we can start by asking why there is over 300 cases assign to only ONE social worker in the welfare offices and why isn’t there more regulations and investigations?
For example wouldn’t you think if a person needs to get drug tested to be considered a candidate for a job opening position wouldn’t they drug test these candidates who are receiving FREE money from the government which is technically a flow of the money of those of us who work for a living!?
I just think our system is so “stupidly organized” so pathetically organized that that’s part of the reason why our money flow isn’t at it’s best.
So your probably wondering why do I care or why even waist my time writing about this right?
Well here goes my story my mom was recently diagnosed with Lung Cancer stage 4 (no she is not a smoker) and with that to our luck it is slow growing and hasn’t spread very far. So although it is not curable the fact that its slow growing can give her more time to live than someone who has a rapid growing lung tumor so we are trying to stay positive and enjoy anytime we have left with her.
Anyways like I was saying here she is a 45 year old lady who worked 3 jobs her whole life making good money and keeping her family stable. However with the cancer and treatment her doctor had requested she no longer work until the cancer was more “stable” so here she is no longer working and just finished up the last of her chemo at least until the resent test results to see what is our next step…
So here we are at the last of the testing of test needed for results of the chemo and when she gets out they tell us that we need to pay a total of 1,098 dollars for the exam!? So of course we are confused and ask them “Why? According to our understanding she worked so hard and made pretty good money that she was eligible for the “best” of medical insurances that give her no limits?” and the nurse says “yes that’s the one you have however it states here that you were only eligible for a percentage and so you have to pay this money out of your pocket” so of course I tell her it has to be incorrect so we call her social worker and the social worker states that this is correct because my mom gets a “good amount” of disability money that is good enough for her self and two boys she can pay half of that money for her medical expenses… So than my mom tells her “But mam half that money already goes to my rent what about bills and food? and the lady says “well have you tried food stamps? Wait you made to much to be eligible for that… Well mam I don’t know what to tell you the truth now in days rent is considered and luxury so they don’t really include the cost of it in your case, sorry mam that’s the cost that its going to be every month in order for you to be able to get your treatment…”
And for the most part that was the end of the conversation as I heard that I felt blood rushing to my head I can feel myself getting warm on my cheeks and I couldn’t believe that this lady just told us that “Now in days RENT is a luxury!” You have to be kidding me so a mom with only two kids (she has four but two of us are over 18) has to probably find a smaller place to live or to better state in “live under a dam bridge” in order to continue her treatment and add more life spam in order to continue to raise them!
I mean for god sakes like having cancer isn’t already bad enough!?
So I mean we will be okay Ill be doing my best to help her as much as I can (working two jobs and going to school) and I know that god is always by our sides. However I wanted to share this because I don’t think that our government has their system set up right and I think its unfair that those who truly need the help for example my mom who worked for most of her life time paying taxes to this country arnt the ones getting the help needed and instead its going to a bunch of free loaders living the good life, a life style better than we even are and we are the ones busting our bottoms for that money.
Just something to think about…
Kbeautifulmind

It is what it is

Hello Everyone!
Man oh man oh man!
It had been a long time since I last wrote, please forgive me and believe me I been wanting to! However working two jobs and going to school as well as trying to get back in shape with everything can really be a handful!
Ever since the Doctors “discovered” my mothers cancer I feel like my life is on a fast train, so much to do and so little time. However I can say I been able to manage it pretty well…
My mom in the other hand is tired everything hurts but although she says she’s tired her mind, body and soul show otherwise…
She’s just so beautiful and strong I sometimes don’t understand how she does it. The chemo gives her all kinds of pain from her toes to her finger tips and chest, she feels tired and gets head aches at times too and not to forget her lost of appetite but if you saw her in person you could never tell! She looks strong and fearless she is always pushing her self to eat and stay active as well as pray and have a positive mind set. I admit I admire her and sometimes I wonder if I could ever be as strong as her? For I am different Im always worried, stressing and my heart still hasn’t heeled from some of the pain Ive suffered in life.
The doctor told us this last chemo was going to be the last one but apparently there might need to be one more…
Does that make me sad? Yes.
Does that make her sad? No.
She just says she’s tired of all the back and forth and the endless waiting and the hours of sitting there… But she told me “It is what it is” and although I don’t really like that saying she’s totally right!
Life is what it is, just like needing to wake up early and be at work all day one job after another, wanting to go to school for a better future as well as needing to do the homework that comes with it and on top of it all dealing with having to witness my moms pain as well as feeling pain of my own after everything Ive dealt with. Either way like she says “It is what it is” so I take all Ive been through, and all Im going through and I mix it in a bowl and call it strength. Then everyday I remind myself that all of these obstacles and situations are a part of life and life “is what it is” so you can let them bring you down or allow them to make you stronger.
Thanks for reading!
Kbeautifulmind

It doesn’t discriminate

Today we are finishing session number two. This place reeks of alcohol, there is so many people here all of different colors, ethnicities, class, weight, and hight all with different stories and cancers.

You can see a person’s whole life in the cancer they get.

I’ve had a chance to talk to a couple of people…
This girl is my age 22 years old and has cancer, her name is Ann. I wanted to hug her she is so pretty, she lives in South Pasadena. She lost all her friends as soon as she let them know… She said “They always make excuses why we can’t hang out but my boyfriend keeps me busy” than she fell asleep…
This other man seems about 50 his white cells don’t come out “correctly” I didn’t catch the name of his cancer. Six years ago they gave him 3 months to live the doctor told him there was no hope, he responded “only god knows that one sir” and he said the doctor was so annoyed by his response… Now he is still alive coming in every two weeks for some medication that gets injected into his veins.
Another lady was crying I gave her a tissue and continue reading my book… She laughed and asked me ” You probably think I look stupid for crying?” I told her “No mam I understand your pain” so she told me… “You know… Finding out I had cancer was hard but I had strength and hope, as my chemo went on I felt stronger… Last week I was in what seemed my last chemo and the results came back saying “It didn’t work” just like that! All the crap they put into my body and it just didn’t work! Does that make any sense??????…. Well it doesn’t and here I am again…” I didn’t know what to say… Because it does suck and I wish these people weren’t going through this including my momma.
However it made me realize that when we got the news and I was asking god “Why her? Why us???” There was my answer the cancer does not discriminate, it didn’t pick the rich young girl for her class status, age, beauty and those things also didn’t save her from the disease. It didn’t purposely scare the man into thinking he had only 3 months left, the cancer also didn’t decide to just not work on the lady for her skin color or hight. The cancer didn’t walk around and say “I pick you and you and you too!” The cancer isn’t a karma, a payback, a gift… Sadly it’s just flat out BAD LUCK to some people and if you believe in god like my mother and I do… You’d say what she says… ” It’s just a test of faith.”
The truth I don’t know what this is or why it’s even made its way into our lives? I just pray that it brought its boxing gloves and a protecting mouth piece because we are going to fight it until it can’t get up anymore even if we are on the ground with it!
Thanks for reading;
kbeautifulmind

Im right and your wrong and there is nothing you can do about it.

“Argument is the peace you cannot seem to find with the discomforts with in yourself” -me

.I was arguing/debating with a friend the other night about a personal issue that was with in me, something that bothers me and as much as I feel I have let it go the fact that people are so ignorant to understand why when its brought up it upsets me… Is still a issue to me.
You know what I can not stand? Liars… You guys are probably thinking “Hypocrite” yes I am, because I have lied a couple of white lies and some big lies… However I personally hate liars and people who are full of bull and act so fake, I also hate pity and I feel like all of this comes from pity! People who can’t man up and let you know how it is…
However like I said I have done it And I am sure we all have so I feel that once you have failed at that step its time admit you were wrong, ask for forgiveness (if you want it) and show the person you lied to it will never happen again! However sadly this world dosnt work that way, reason why our political parties could never come together as one, why parents and teenagers have never ending drama, and also the reason why AMAZING relationships go down the drain.
So arguments will continue with people as long as they need to until someone steps up to the plate and lets it go… No matter how much a person may be mad, seem like they hate you, tell you your worthless, no matter what… If you step down from the argument accept their decisions/answers, then the better you can live with yourself.
You see expertise isn’t really necessary in order to present a valid argument or intelligent opinion. The necessity here is maturity. After all people don’t say “If you want to show a good impression to someone be mature and polite and never argue about religion or debate” for no reason; Why is that? Because arguments get you no where! They strap you down to your seat filled with drama from the past or a “in the moment” issue that in a couple of hours like the past won’t mean anything!
Best way to fix this…
Let go of whatever is bothering you “forgive others like you’d like to be forgiven if ever in their shoes”
Let it go and work on it on your own for dealing with someone else’s mouth and trying to get them to realize or understand is pointless.
Last but not least if you cant forgive let it go.
Sincerely;
Kbeautifulmind

Promise Yourself

When you are feeling down, disappointed, and helpless make yourself a promise like I do, allow yourself reassurance and remind your self to have faith that all will fall back into place…
My promise to myself:

“Promise Yourself

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.”-Unknown

Over the last 4 years I have had the most breakdowns and saddest moments but this poem right here is what keeps me motivated.

Inspired;
Kbeautifulmind

The perfect world

My Perfect World:

If I could summarize for you guys the idea of a perfect world to me would be a world released from hate and pain, a world with lessons of life to better you, a world with out fears and enough peace, hope and faith for everyone to spare. A perfect world for me would be to be able to LIVE where death is an accident or naturally dying from age and not provoked from a disease, illness, or hate from other humans in our planet, a perfect world would be where as the equal chance we all get to live is the same equal chance we get to die.

“I don’t think you should die until you’re ready. Until you’ve wrung out every last bit of living you can.”

About two months ago a friend and almost like family member very dear to my heart passed away and only a couple of days later I got the saddest news in my life time I’d never thought Id face, and the truth I was mad. I was mad to see such a beautiful, smart loving women leave us! I was so mad to see such wonderful people suffer with the pain in their aching hearts! Mad to see a mother cry, children suffer from the hurt, so many people to still love her and in need to have her by their side were crying and hurting for the lost of such angel and I couldn’t do anything but be there for them… and even than I knew that this was not enough. Then as I’m sitting there trying to be strong and support her loved ones I get a call that feels like a sequel of a movie of the journey I just traveled with these people and I cant stop myself from letting go! From being mad to super angry from wanting to see god in the face and say “What the hell is your problem! Why are you taking them from us!”

and I cried my heart out and I screamed for days and I wanted answers and I said “Why is this stupid disease even on this planet?” “Who the hell is responsible? Bring him/her here so I can destroy them with my bare hands!”

I was so hurt, in so much pain and over all I still had faith in god and I begged him “Please lord if you have ever heard me before heel our hearts from the situation we can no longer control and give us strength for the one that is coming our way”

The truth is I knew better than to blame anyone including god for this, I knew better than to loose faith but I felt on the edge. The truth what made me so mad is that I felt so helpless, useless to it all and all I wanted to do was fix it and I couldn’t and still can’t….

People would tell me “Everything will be okay” and I wanted to curse at them and say ” How do you f%^$en know that!?” but at the same time I was telling others in pain that everything would be okay…

Because the truth is I know it will…

Because as beautiful somethings in life, on this planet can be; Like giving a hug, getting a kiss, sharing a laugh, falling in love, forgiving those you love and making a memory… This is NOT where we belong we are just temporary ordinary people living in a planet were we are building our road to the opening gates where we will be welcomed to join all our lost loved ones for eternal living.

And weather you believe in God, Budah, Jesus, The Easter bunny, a fairy, witches or even Satan… one thing is always true…

YOU only get as much as you can handle and your struggles are only what will build you and make you a better person than who you were yesterday.

“Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.” -Unknown

Therefor as hypocrite as I may sound because I really cant help but loose it sometimes, I truly believe in this quote and know that I am strong and I know that I only get what I can handle and that there is a reason for everything and that god (in my case) will help me through it as it all falls back into place. I also know that all our loved ones are now watching over us as they may no longer be with us but will forever be in our memories and hearts till we meet again.

Thank you all again for reading;

kbeautifulmind

This blog is dedicated to all my friends and family who still hurt to the lost of auntie Debbie.

May you all find peace and know I am here for all of you, if you ever need anything, and remember she is smiling and watching over us as she waits to have us in her arms again.

Hello everyone!

So I made my blog so that I could express my thoughts, however my bio also encourages any comments, concerns and questions from the public and tonight I am very happy because I finally received my first email/question!!! smile.

She says:

Kbeautifulmind,

Let me start off by saying that your blog is pretty interesting, I like your posts because you can tell you just write. You don’t try to word them “just right” what you write is truly just you, almost feels like I am having a conversation with you when I read them. I can also relate to them, they remind me of my life which is why I am writing to you to share with you my situation and see what you have to say about it? First off, Hi my name is April! I am a freshman in college and I grew up in a small town where I had a small group of friends and we were all very very very close! Unfortunately we all ended up in different schools and things are just not the same like when we were in high school. I know it has only been one semester but I feel as if I am loosing my friends, I try so hard to call and email and hang out when I can and they are just not putting in the same effort I am! They also have new friends now, I feel as if I am being replaced what should I do?

Hope you you can reply to this in a blog post, cannot wait to read,

April.

Hi April!

I’d like to thank you for the wonderful comment about my blog, I am glad to know someone is actually reading and well to reply to it I do JUST WRITE! Ha Ha I am actually a horrible speller and I can never seem to word things right but I sure can ramble on and on and on! smile.

Well here it goes this post is for you…

“The past is called the past for a reason”

I’d like to start of by saying that no one should ever give up on anything or anyone in their lives if they feel its/they are worth fighting for, you would rather be saying “I gave it my all and it just didn’t turn out like I expected” than to be saying “I got scared and gave up and now I’m living with the regret”

So my first advise to April is to not give up on your friends tell them exactly how you feel about the situation and how things have turned out and let them know that you do not want to loose their friendship! Always remember communication is key no matter the type of relationship.

Now to better answer your question I’m going to relate to your situation…

I personally have always been a person of different emotions specially when it came to relationships with others.
I am the kind of person that if hurt or rejected I tend to run and let go of the situation instead of facing it and well If I were in your shoes like I have been before Id just feel neglected and run off loosing friendships and the bonds with people who I care about so much.

I think what makes me this way is because I tend to give my all into anything from day one and always build the perfect relationship with others even in just regular friendships. So when I get hurt and I feel betrayed or I begin to feel neglected than I tend to just shut down and I’m no longer who I use to be.

Like April I have had some very close friends some who I stopped talking to because they hurt me and others who I fell apart with, with out understanding why?

and the truth some I missed a lot! Those are the ones who I still tried to connect with. Over the years I tried so hard to communicate with them and hold on to the relationships to try and interact and keep things the same.

However with time I have accepted that “The past is called the past for a reason”. I have accepted that people grown and change and everyone moves on, and I have realized that that’s not such a bad thing. I have also accepted that I myself need to live in the present and look forward to the future. I mean why am I going to dwell on situations and moments I cannot change? There is no reason why I should be trying to re live moments in my life I have already experienced, go places where I have already been and not allowing my self to discover the wonderful new things that await for me.

So with this I leave you April and all other readers…

If there is someone in your life who you are reaching out to, weather it is a group of friends or anyone else and they just aren’t appreciating the attention you are giving them, do not be afraid to continue on with your life specially if you are in a new place like college. You can still discover what life has to offer and hold on to the memories and good times you shared with those people and if they truly care about you they will reach out eventually and make some effort of their own to be apart of your wonderful new life.

April! Don’t sweat it, allow yourself to make new friends of your own and if your friends truly appreciate the bond you guys have build through out the years they will eventually make some effort of their own. However do not forget to talk to them and tell them how you feel as a way of saying you at least “let them know”.

Thank you so much for reading,

Kbeautifulmind

Back to that same old place

Hello everyone;

I’m honestly not sure if I have any regular readers but If I do I’d like to thank you all for reading.

and If I have regular readers than you all know it has been a while since I have written, the truth I have been very busy with school and work and well just plain old life. As a matter of fact I should be doing homework right now but I really felt like writing,smile.

“If you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” – Marilyn Monroe

There is something I have been thinking about for these past days…

I have heard before that we are all destined to live our lives a certain way. I never been a believer of that…

I have always believed that you make your own destiny and what happens to you only happened to you as a result of a decision you made to get there.

I mean could it really be possible that we were born into this world to live a certain way and no matter what we do to try and change it, it will just fall right back into that “same old place”?

I can honestly say that I still do not believe that’s possible…

However sometimes life seems to feel this way…

I like all of us have some regrets in life as well as mistakes I know I have made but for the most part I have learned and asked for forgiveness and if not forgiven I forgave myself and tried to move forward. I also know that some of the worst things that have happened to me with time have to be my karma for any pain I have caused others and myself.

Could it be possible that it is all karma?

I mean there is nothing super awesome about me that makes me better than anyone else but I do know that even after all my flaws and personal issues I make a pretty cool human being and some people would be lucky to have me in their lives.

I still cannot help but feel like no matter how much I try to run away, ignore, or leave the presence of people who are negative, I keep coming back to that same old place. So of course that brings me back to myself and wondering if I’m that bad of a person to deserve such people by my side or if these are the kind of people I attract.

Than I think of my location and my future looks more blurry than it ever has it seems like every day I wake its just a repeat of yesterday and will only repeat its self again tomorrow…

Just back to that same old place…

I ALWAYS say I need to leave this town and eventually I will, I just need the courage to just pack my bags and go and start it all over where no one knows my name.

So till than this place may be the same old place but its definitely not the same old day and I just need to stay positive.

Even though times get hard, and the people by my side arn’t the most appreciative of having me by their side I think that I need for things to happen the way they do, so that I could open my eyes and learn. Learn, grow, and change. Everyday I get the chance to wake I get a chance at another day to better myself, and become the person I was meant to be.

and with this I leave you…

If you are reading this and you don’t feel like your getting anywhere or people around you arnt really appreciating you weather it is your boss, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, mother, father, sibling or even children do not feel like its your fault. Don’t let these hard times in your life make you feel like your not worth much or even like you deserve it just let it all be a reason to know that you will only continue to become a better YOU.

and that even if you are stuck in the same old place, times will get better and those who do not appreciate you might not be lucky enough to some day even know you.

Thank you for reading;

Kbeautifulmind

I’m the same person

“I’m still the same person, you just got to see the bad side of me”

Yesterday as I was ringing up a customer at the register I had a horrible experience, this lady was in the worst mood a person could be in. She was very upset because our athletic clothes only went up to size XL in youth sizes and she needed an XXL for her son. As she walked up I could tell she was upset but I still greeted her very nicely asking her How she was doing and she responded…. “I hate this dam store, you guys never have anything that fits my son, his game is in an hour and to top it off I couldn’t find anyone to help me out” I apologized for the in convenience and continued to ring her up. Than she had the nerve to tell me “Could you stop taking your sweet as f#$%ing time” Like if it was my fault that she bought three hundred dollars worth of clothes that all had the alarm activating protectors on them. I hurried up not even folding her items and than I asked “We no longer give out bags for free did you want to buy one for your items or will you be carrying them out” After this it was like I just said “Your kid is fat that’s why he cant fit in to our youth clothes, you should start cooking more healthy, your husband and you fight because you don’t know how to communicate your issues that’s if your not divorced yet, and your mad at the world only because you want to be,get your life together learn to have confidence in yourself and it wont be so hard.” She got so upset with me that she started yelling asking me “How are you going to dare charge me for a bag after all the dam shit I just bought for you? My money is the reason why you have a dam job!” and she grabbed all her stuff and left…

The truth I was upset! I wanted to jump over the counter and attack her like a Lion after his lunch.

Than I began to realize that her actions were nothing personal she did not know anything about me she was just mad at the world do to her personal issues.

Unless she was like that all the time? Than my prayers go out to her poor family.

At my lunch I was finally able to relax, however I couldn’t help and continue to think of how much of a mean person that lady had been. So I began to think of all of the times some one had told me “I hate you” “Your so rude” “Your so mean, I don’t like you” “My friends don’t like you because you were mean to me”

and I said to myself does that mean I am a horrible person? or did I just make some poor choices?

and well that’s everyone’s own opinion however I always have gotten more positive feed back about who I am than negative feed back and the truth is that I KNOW I’m not a horrible person and I know that lady wasn’t either.

Sometimes life can get so hard that we don’t know how to handle it.

So I say…

Never allow the judgement of a handful of people define who you are specially if its from a incident that happened on a bad day. If you know you’ve made some poor choices or have made the mistake to mistreat someone with out taking their feelings into consideration. Understand you made a mistake, explained what went wrong and why you reacted in such way and truly apologize if your sorry. Than if they do not forgive you just let it go, pray that they forgive you some day and move forward with the intentions of everyday improving your life style to become a better person.

and If your the person judging someone and hating them because of one incident where they hurt your feelings… Let it go! Think of all the good time you’ve had with that person and remember they are only human and like you deserve to be forgiven for that incident. Don’t trash talk them or represent them as a horrible person to the rest of the world for than the issue is with in you, and holding on to that grudge is only going to hurt you in the long run.

Thank you for reading;

kbeautifulmind

People plan, and God laughs

“If you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” – Marilyn Monroe