There is something in side of me that eats at me.
This something comes along at random times of the day; ruining my mood, making me loose focus and making me weaker everytime.
I can be happy and in a good mood, thinking positive, and then it shows up like a wild beast ready to destroy me.
It always starts off with my brain and it argues with me in side my head.
What did you do?
What are you doing?
What’s going on?
What’s coming next?
I quickly question it and ask “What are you talking about? Everything is great!”
But it shakes it’s head at me saying “You can fool everyone else but you can not full me”
After my mind it moves slowly and takes over my heart like a tumor swallowing it slowly, not wanting it to live.
It brings me to tears, and I feel my lungs drying up, Im loosing air…
“Could I die like this?”
It’s making me feel like I’m not enough, like the fault is all mine…
That’s when I begin to think that maybe I’m not so tough.
Something inside me wakes up, and it fights!
And I fight it and even though it takes a little piece of me every time it can’t seem to ever take me hole.
And I say to it…
“I will never let you take me out that way”