Tag: lust

Please don’t let me get one of those…

Today I want to talk about cheating.

I know it’s sadly pretty normal now in days in today’s society, but is it really a fairy tale to hope for someone who only has eye’s for you?

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I went to my first Dodger game of the season, since I’m finally out of school for the summer and I LOVE my boys in blue.

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While enjoying my Friday night, I experienced a very awkward situation. I had experienced stuff like this before, however sitting there for three hours feeling WEIRD, really pissed me off.

And all I could think was… “Lord, all I ask is that you please don’t let me get one of those.”

Anyway, to my story…

So I’m sitting their watching the Game with my brother and this man keeps looking at me. Not looking at me like I look familiar, or like there is something on my face. Looking at me, like in his mind he was un dressing me with his eyes, and he was imagining exactly what he could do with me if he had the chance. I discreetly watched him as he’d check out the tits on another girl, the ass and hips on another one. But since I was in the row in front of him and his FAMILY to the side, he’d watch the game, look over at me, and smile.

Now his family was pretty big, he had three boys and a beautiful little girl about age five. His wife was very pretty, but insecurity and discomfort bleed through her pours.
I could tell just by analyzing them, he was a cheater and she dealt with it.
She looked over at me a couple of times as she watched him look, and would just look down on her phone.
I paid no attention to him, never once gave him the attention he was looking for, and one time I even gave him a dirty look.
Because he was dirty to me, and it was very upsetting to see how he was acting.

I wanted to tell him something so bad!
I wanted to tell her, “You are SO BEAUTIFUL, why do you allow this?”

But all I could do was pray, and in that moment I said to god.
“Look god, I KNOW cheating is pretty normal nowindays, and MAYBE we humans were not meant to be tied down to one person since we seem to get bored easily, BUT some of us really do desire a healthy marriage and a team mate who only has eye’s for us. Now I know to an extent it’s normal to look, we all do it BUT please, please god, if marriage is in my destiny, don’t let me get one of those.”

What scares me and makes me want to shut down is that I see it all the time…

On Facebook I have friend’s who shout out their men with statuses like “You are the best husband I could ever ask for.”
Yet we know he sleeps around.

On instagram woman quote to be so happy with their men…
Yet he is sending private messages to us single girls, and has no pictures of her on his IG.

Of course in part, those single girls who go along with it are JUST as wrong, but in the end it’s no one’s fault that his eyes are wondering and his mind wants to act on it.

Love is one of the scariest things in the world.
I use to love the idea of falling in love so much, and the thought of meeting the one would make me so happy.

If I’m being honest, now it scares the crap out of me.

I no longer desire marriage and kids as much as I use to.

-Kbeautifulmind

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He woke up and it was too darn early…
The alarm kept going off.
It was a gloomy morning, and it looked like it was going to rain.

He looked next to him and there she was, naked, laying on her stomach, with her curly hair all over the place.
As he watched her breathe and sleep so peacefully he could still see the scars on her back from the knife of her previous lover.
He caressed them softly and thought…

“I want to protect her. I could truly love her someday, I want to be the one to heal that heart so that she never feels pain again.”

She woke up, turned and looked at him.

“Good morning!” He said.

“Good morning handsome,” and she smiled.

“Have you been awake this whole time?”

“No, but I did wake up before you and I was just thinking, as I watched you sleep…”

“About?”

“I was wondering… do you still feel the pain? Do you still remember him?”

She paused and saw it all in her head again, but it no longer moved her.

“I’ll never forget; How can you forget one of the most memorable lessons of your life?
You can’t, the lessons of life are our best teachers.” She smiled and kissed him softly.

In that moment he knew…
He knew that he could truly in deed love her someday, and that she would sincerely love him back and also heal his wounds.

“The broken pair”

-Kbeautifulmind

She made a promise

She made a promise to herself, not because she wanted to shut and lock all the doors to love.

She made this promise because the pain from the games were still too raw.

She knew her worth, exactly what she wanted, and what she very well deserved.

So she laid her offer on the table and walked out that door with all the hurt.

As she shut the door, she felt the fear drifting and a proud feeling in her chest.

She knew that if she kept her promise, it would all be worth it in the end, for the one who got to taste her body again would be the one to never hurt her or let it end.

-Kbeautifulmind

He was choking her

He was choking her.

She was lost in his eyes not completely understanding what was drawing her in.

He gave her a kiss so deep, so passionate her lips began to feel numb, yet she just couldn’t resist.

He had her gasping for air, as he traced her body with his finger tips.

He was choking her, it was something she had never felt before.

She tried to control her breathing as his tongue explored her;

From her neck,

to her breast,

followed by her belly button,

down to her thighs and back up to her mouth.

He was choking her, kissing her softly, picking her up slowly, moving her in a rhythm that made her explode.

He was choking her, as he devoured her, filling her with so much love that she forgot how to breath.

-Kbeautifulmind

Forever

I always thought that we would be together.
Since the day I first met you, that smile scarred my soul and I just couldn’t forget you.
I could have sworn that we would be together, when we reunited I believed that we would last forever.
Look at us now just two lovers from the past, walking past each other, just two strangers who couldn’t last.
It just seems so sad when you think back, but sadly there is no coming back from the pain that has been caused.
Maybe the timing wasn’t right again, or maybe you weren’t ready to move on, maybe the timing was right but you weren’t ready to be drawn.
Drawn into commitment, since you couldn’t stop telling all those lies only causing us to continue to fight.
Maybe it was me, maybe I wasn’t as good as I could be,
or maybe I just tried too hard, and took my effort into extremes.
I guess we will never know because there ain’t no way I’m looking back, It just seems so sad when I think about the things you use to say, all the promises you made.
Because…
I always thought that we would be together, when we reunited I believed that we would last forever.

-Kbeautifulmind

Women are not all the same, they come in different shapes and possess different minds. We have the women with self respect, high standards and who know their values. They accept nothing less than what they are worth. We also have the women who are lost and insecure, which leads them to take any title just for some attention.

-Kbeautifulmind

I’m a gentleman

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I’m a gentleman of gentle deeds,
I was raised by a beautifully kind woman and a man with so much pride and honor, even when he had to work on his hands and knees.
They taught me about respect, they taught me how to love and to always treat others with kindness.
They raised me to be the great man I am today.
My smile confirms my thoughts, I’m not the best at communicating but if you make me comfortable I’ll open up with integrity and no hesitation.
I’m a simple man of simple gestures,
whose kindness has never been fought.
My words are clever,
My ideas are charming,
and I try to keep my romance soft yet strong.
I bring flowers, I open doors, I’ll hold your hand, and respect all your thoughts.
I am a gentleman,
Yes, we do still exist.
I understand it’s hard to trust me, especially in todays society.
Just know that my intentions are good. I choose to be a gentleman,
the careful man of this generation because I’m here to show you that we’re not all the same.

-Kbeautifulmind

Make me your home

Make me your home, no need to continue spending anymore nights alone.
Let me be the covers on your back as I hold you close, caressing your chest and feeling the beat of your heart full of joy.
Let our toes meet at the end of the bed, as a shock sparks through our bodies sending the desire we have for each other to our brains.
Let me explore you like no one else has done so before, let me be the one that gives you the crave to always want more.
Make me your home, I know you’ll look forward to me at the end of the day.
I promise you baby there will be no regrets.

-Kbeautifulmind