Its not about the money its about the power

“How much money can a person spend?”

My inspiration for this post have been many things from seeing how hard I work every day and how fast money can go, to all of the world wide issues we have today.

A couple of nights ago I sat at Starbucks as I watched the presidential debate and I began to wonder what life would be like if we were all equally financially balanced… What life would be like without so much greed?

The other day I ordered myself a pair of shoes I been wanting for a while now, they cost me $120.00 dollars which by the way only cost the makers about $3.00 to make. After my purchase I began to kick myself and say “This was not a NEED it was a WANT.” Later on I told myself… “Relax you have taken care of all of your responsibilities it was something you deserved!”

Then I began to think am I the only crazy one that thinks this way?

There are people everywhere that buy things just to feel better about themselves and feel more powerful…

Research has shown there are people all around the world that suffer of diseases like Bulimia, Anorexia, as well as Kleptomania due to the influences of the media and the Hollywood life style. Just like these diseases you have shopaholics and attention seekers who feel that the material things of life are what really matter. People have lost everything they once had because they did not know how to budget their money, others have also found the need to steel to get that “thing” they want. Last but not least Californian’s are breaking the law and cheating the government system of help to fulfill the desire of having nice things they cannot afford.

The truth is; “It’s not about the money it’s about the power”

People do not buy things because they can afford it; over half of California owes a lot of money to credit card companies. So you began to thing “Why would people want to be in so much dept?” The truth is it’s the power, that feeling that makes some one feel complete or happy to have things they cannot afford just to shove it in the faces of toughs less fortunate.

And with that said I leave you with this…

Stop trying to be something you’re not. Remember that looking like Nicki Minaj, Justin Bieber, or having the fine things that Kim Kardashian and her sisters have don’t make you a better you. What is life if you’re trying to live your life in the shadows of others? When you try to live your life like someone else you hide your true colors and the beauty of who you really are and what you represent. The material things will never bring you happiness, after all when you die you take nothing with you so why not live life for what you truly are?

Do things for you, be grateful for your health and the people that are still by your side. Live life for its true beauty and be glad for the chance of making it through another day in this planet. Do not forget where you come from and remember no matter how much money you have or what you can and cannot afford, always ask yourself “Is this a want for me or for everyone else?”

Thank you for reading;

Kbeautifulmind

Road rage in your destiny

Today as I woke up at six thirty in the morning I began to think of what my day would be like…

I told my self “Today you BETTER be productive!”

My plan was…

I would go to work for my shift

go to school to buy a book I need for my class

come home open up my email and start reviewing the files for my research on “Road Rage” which by the way was not my interest AT ALL but I got stuck with it.

eight hours later after work…

I came straight home forgot to stop by the book store and with no interest in my research homework put it aside and took a little nap…

productive? I think not!

I woke up feeling very tired realizing I had not ate all day and I still had to work on my research.

“Ugh I’m so tired who in the world wants to do research on road rage right now? My hole life is a road rage… I’m the car and the traffic is… what is my traffic?”

The road rage to my destiny…

You know I use to have a very good life plan for myself I thought I had it all figured out from my carrier, to my future family, as well as how many kids and when and also where I would live and practice my profession; In my mind my destiny was set.

One day or at least as it seems my life made a U turn and along came the road rage, what seem like a plan was now the wrong way, or at least as it seemed, I was running low on gas to top it off there was so much bad traffic that I was so angry at everyone that got in my way.

I had to change a lot of things starting with ME…

Could it be true that we all have a destiny? and do we as individuals choose to follow it or is it just set up for us?

This is a question that haunts me every time I make a decision even if it is something as small as “When am I going to get started on this research project?”

The truth is I do not know what to believe sometimes, because just when things seem right they are all wrong and just when the road seems clear you look again and here comes the traffic…

all I know is that I no longer live to much by a plan or in a goal to please others before I am pleased myself, I no longer am going to blame my life on the traffic or allow for the bad driver in front of me to get the best of me..

I know in my mind my goals are clear and eventually I will get exactly to where I need to be, so whats the point of tail gating, honking or allowing the traffic and cars get to you?

There is no point to road rage in your destiny.

So if your reading this remember to go out today and be your best. Don’t try to be like others, just be you. Work on your gift and what you are good at. When you drive on the road of your creative zone then you will be more confident. When you are focused on your purpose you will be in your zone and you will see things like never before.

Time to get to researching;

Kbeautifulmind

Remember When

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Remember when we were just two friends in a crowed, never thinking life would bring us together some how…

Remember when we were young and time stood still love is all we ever knew.

We gave our hearts with out a doubt that our lives would fall into place some how,

we had no worries, we grew with love we found trust thought we’d never give it up.

we came together, grew apart and with out realizing it we broke each others hearts.

Remember when we thought 22 was old now looking back it was just a stepping stone that has brought us to where we are, would you do it all again?

we lived and learned, life occurred and has placed us in our paths, we have found our peace maybe even our happiness.

all I want to know is do you remember when?

with love;

kbeautifulmind

Reality slaps me in the face more and more everyday

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From the high gas prices, to the two classes I scored for fall semester, and even the life crisis that surround us as I get older I begin to realize that life can get hard and that as time passes by we are no longer the kids we once were. I remember being in high school and saying to myself at times “I cant wait till I’m 18 and can move out” “I cant wait till I go to college and get a degree to be making more money”. However one phrase I remember the most is… ” Life will be so much easier when I’m older and have self control of my own life”. That time is here and I have come to realize that life is nothing what I thought it would be, time has made me realize that turning 18 years old is not “becoming an adult”. We do not grow until we hit our mid twenties and life does not take affect on us until our minds begin to mature and we come to conclusion that we have always had self control of our lives. We just need to want to succeed and improve our way of living. For some less than others life after high school has been a piece of cake and for us others it has been a way of opening our eyes to realize that nothing ever goes as planned, and that the obstacles that life throws at us are just there to test our faith to see how much we truly believe in our dreams and desires. Everything we deal with as we age from financial issues, to family issues, to mid life crisis, and things not going as planned are just situations that test our faith to see how much we can handle and how far are we willing to go to accomplish what we want the most. I’ve come to realize that life may not be a big paradise dream and I know that as I get older I will continue to come across obstacles that may make me feel like I will never accomplish my goals. However, the key to life or at least from my perspective is to continue to push and never give up; always remember you have self control of your own destiny.

Continue to enjoy the life you have been privilege to live.

-kbeautifulmind

Life is like a Box of Chocolates

“Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get.“

As I sit here looking at my summer school registration and what my options are for STATS 50, I begin to reminiscent of my freshmen year in college and how long ago that was (about four years ago). I begin to talk my self down a bit and start to say “Wow Kelsey you’re on your fourth year of college and you still can’t finish with your general education? What’s wrong with you?” and that’s when I look up and see the box of chocolates on the table and I start to break it down for myself to remind myself that I’m going to be okay…

In 2008 I graduated from High School in the small town of Monrovia, California and if it wasn’t for the help of some of the staff members as well as my godfather I wouldn’t have been on my way to a four year University, at the fact that I am the first in my family to go to college. In the summer of 2008 I started my first year at Cal State Northridge. As August came I left all the familiar faces from my home town and into a city I went to a new apartment with almost all knew faces (with the exception of my roommate who went to high school with me, and is now my best friend). My first year in college went pretty smoothly and I said to myself “This is easy Ill be finished in four years, than I can go for my masters and my PH.D and Ill be done by age 25-26. Than I can get married and after a year or so start my future family” and there I had it, I had my plan and my box of chocolates and It all seemed sweet and dandy.

and this is where the “you never know what your going to get” comes in…

In my sophomore year at the end of my fall semester, I was in a horrible car accident. This caused me to miss the last month of school which got me a D in my biology class, I had to get a new car not to mention a month later I quit my job because my boss was making me uncomfortable, and I now had to miss spring semester of school because there was an investigation on my school grants and my entire situation.

so I told myself “your going to be okay its just a little bump on the road your only a semester behind”

My junior year came and Fall semester was a success, I moved back home the drive wasn’t to bad everything seemed okay. Than during my winter break my life began to “fall apart” at least as it seemed at the moment. I no longer knew what road I was on anymore, my support I had was no longer by my side, and the people I called “friends” were not the people I thought I knew. I felt alone and all I had was hope that in only a couple of months things would go back to normal. I began to realize I wasn’t appreciated and as my life changed I knew I was worth more than the credit I was given as well as the things I was allowing myself to go through, so I decided to put a stop to it. I than made a drastic change and oh man was it heartbreaking, the hardest decisions to make are the ones your heart does not desire. Spring semester came and it was all a big blur to me, my life was changing and half the times I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see what was going to come next. I was confused and so afraid, heartbroken, alone and lost, and half the times miss lead, I had no idea how to get back on the road and stick to my plan.

I ended up failing my statistics class a grade very well deserved, half the time I didn’t even show up for class.

and here I was only months away from my 21st birthday with my box of chocolates that didn’t turn out to be quite what I expected. Not knowing where I was, what I wanted, or If what I wanted was even worth the wait, I was ready to dispose of it, yet something in my mind told me to wait and try some more.

to make things worse CSUN told me I had to take my STATS class some where else, because of my academic results financial aid was no longer going to pay for it. They said I could return once I had passed the class.

I thought Id loose it, this was it my life was OVER.

Through the support of my close friends and wonderful mother I realized my life wasn’t over and this was just another bump on my road to success.

My summer was nice, I met new people, got close to some and fell apart with others, I cleared my mind and I was ready to accept all that had happened and do all I could to just look forward.

I took my fall semester at a community college and although I didn’t get the Stats class I needed I caught up and I got back on the road. I had wonderful people by my side and I was no longer letting anything stop me.

and here I am spring semester taking Statistics wondering if I’m even going to pass or if Ill have to take it again in the summer… (which for the record it is the 3rd time but because I didn’t learn anything the first time it will be like the 2nd.)

I come to realize that who cares if my box of chocolates isn’t filled with only good,sweet,chocolaty pieces.

and maybe I will have to take STATS again, and I might not get my PH.D till age 30-32 but at least my mind is set that someday I’m going to get there and when I do hold the name of Dr. I can say that I did it and succeeded.

You see school isn’t a sweet rich piece of chocolate, but if it wasn’t hard everyone would do it, it’s the hard that makes it great.

So with my story as example, I tell you that no matter who you are, your age or what your goals and dreams are in life and how long they take don’t let the gross pieces in your box of chocolates stop you from finishing strong.

Because…

Life is like a box of chocolates, loaded with surprises, some delightful and some downright disagreeable. The delicious ones, of course, are easy to swallow, but the gross ones can make you so sick to your stomach that you want to just give up and throw them all away.

However the gross ones determine our depth of character. If life was all sweet and dandy, and your faith and dreams were never challenged, how could any of us be unique and proud after we succeed? It’s the bad times that test our faith and help us to mature as we learn to rely on ourselves and believe in our heart. This makes us see that with another taste, that piece might be the sweet and chocolatey one that reminds us that in the end it will all be worth it.

Yours Truly;

Kbeautifulmind.

Happy to be living♥

“Life changes every minute of everyday. You loose friends and you gain friends. You realize your friend was never really your friend and that person you use to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love and you lose love. You realize that all along you’ve been loved. You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups and you have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You realize who they are and are glad you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end , you just find yourself happy to be living, no matter whats thrown at you…” ♥