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Hello Dear WordPress Followers,

I’d to take this moment to thank you all for reading my work, for being fans of what I write and believe in since I created my blog.

I’d also like to address that I’m working on writing more this year, expanding my words to touch more lives, and to share that I have some new and fun exciting project ideas on the way!

I’ve decided to create a “Professional Instagram” page, were I’d like to expose my poetry, quotes, short stories, advise through my knowledge, and display my soon to come videos or audio recordings!

I hope you all will follow and join me in this exciting journey!

Instagram: Kbeautifulmind__ (those are two _ _ )

Thanks y’all! I’m excited!

XO,

Kbeautifulmind

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When my mom passed…

When my mother passed, my life began. My world came crashing down, and a piece of my heart died with her. 

However; her death was the beginning of a beautiful and perfectly imperfect new me. 

When my mother passed, I promised to love deeper. 

I promised to express my love for those I cared about, and appreciate them to my full potential. 

I promised to be grateful for the love and blessing friendships I was so lucky to have. 

I promised to appreciate the kindness and help of all of those that had showed me so much support. 

I promised to be good. 

I promised to do good. 

I promised that even though I knew I wasn’t perfect, I’d always try to be the best. 

I promised that I’d be a good person in this world but that when I wasn’t, I’d forgive myself and not play victim or be too hard on myself. 

When my mom died, my world came crashing down…

Only to rebuild itself to the world I’ve always wanted to live in. 

In this world I forgive, I hurt but I look at the bright side. 

I do my best to over come anything thrown my way, and I TRULY live and love the life I’m living. 

When my mom passed, my life began. 

-Kbeautiflmind 

No true friend will EVER

My first friendship betrayal happened my freshmen year in HS.
After that situation my mom gave me this talk as I cried in her lap…
I rememeber it because I wrote it down in my diary that night, and litterly made myself learn it.
I use to allow people to walk all over me.
Throughout highschool whenever anyone pulled some crap on me, I cut them right out of my life.
I didn’t care if I ended up alone, I just didn’t believe in dealing with these kind of people.
I didn’t find it worthy.

“No true friend will EVER talk about you.
No true friend will EVER spill out your secrets and anything that you’ve told them confidently.
No true friend will EVER disrespect you, or try to embarrass you in front of others.
No true friend will EVER be jealous of you, be envious of anything you have, or secretly wish that you don’t succeed.
A true friend however might just tell you like it is at times, or what you don’t wish to hear.
BUT never in a way where they be little you or make you feel worse than you might already feel.
Last but not least, always step back and observe the person, see what their intentions are and WHY they desire to be in your life.
Usually if you watch, you can see right through them.
If they do any of this and claim that it’s because they are your friend, those are not friends mija. They are people who stick around because they want to either be you, or are hoping to have the joy of watching you fail.”
-Maricela Lopez
Basically, no true friend will EVER betray you.

Thank you momma for being such a wonderful role model, mother and friend!
Thanks to you I learned to cherish and appreciate the good people I have in my life and I do my best to be as good to them as I can be.
I mean we are all human, we’ve said stupid things we regret, or have made the mistake of taking others for granted.
However, I believe that when the behavior repeats it’s self, you shouldn’t have to continue to allow those people to stay in your life.
Just like baseball, 1, 2, 3 strikes you’re out!
-Kbeautifulmind

A question from a reader…

Tonight I received another “critic”

One of my readers asked me…

“Why are you so bitter about your last relationship?

I understand cheating is wrong, but do you ever think that maybe he just didn’t love you anymore?”

I don’t want to sound mean but, you really need to move on and let him be happy!”

Now I wasn’t going to respond to this, because obviously my “reader” is not a big fan of my writing…

But, eh why not?

So…

I’d like to start by defending myself a little and state that I have moved on.

I am very proud to say that I have taken it into my own hands and forgave him for all of the pain he caused me.

To tell you the truth, I’ve never been happier. Honest to god!

However, I understand why my post about infidelity make me seem “bitter.”

So let me address it for you.

I am not bitter, and the pain I had felt was not because, he no longer “loves” me.

Also in my defense, I have never done anything to bother him, or hold him back from his happiness.

When I think of a cheater, I think of a student glancing at her/his notes under the desk very quickly because she can’t seem to remember the term she studied about for hours!

I think of a card player winning a game of Black Jack only because he counted the cards.

You see, this action that ruins relationships between two people who have promised a commitment to each other isn’t “cheating.”

This action is more like…

Lying, betrayal, disrespect, abuse, broken, murder, selfishness, and of course weakness.

So, my dear reader…

The pain I or ANYONE has felt after being “Cheated” on isn’t a reaction of “not wanting to move on” OR not accepting that maybe he “just didn’t love me anymore.”

If I am being honest, I think I’ll never know if he actually loved me.

I know he loved the idea of me?

I just don’t believe you can intentionally hurt someone when you love them.

You don’t kill the persons trust for you when you love someone.

When you truly LOVE, you don’t intentionally hurt the person in the same way more than once.

As I was saying…

Cheating is so painful because it makes the one being cheated on feel like they were at fault.

You see…

You fall in love with someone who could never and has never loved you back.

You make excuses, you defend, and you protect this person.

You FIGHT with all your might to try to convince not only those around you but, YOURSELF that he/she is better than how they are representing themselves.

You fight for the good you see in them, until the ugly over powers you and smacks you down on your ass.

Then…

You feel like an idiot.

You feel stupid, low, ashamed, and embarrassed.

You begin to regret all the chances you gave them, and start asking yourself… ‘What were you thinking?”

You are left there to pick up the pieces up on your own.

It ends up being all on you to accept the apology you might never receive, to forgive someone who doesn’t need your forgiveness, and to forget.

Now, I don’t mean forget as in forget about the person… because once you’ve seen how bad they are for you, that is not so hard.

But, forget as in forget all the fight you gave, only to lose.

I never thought of myself as a woman who makes bad choices…

So, when I was left alone to accept that this time around I had…

I guess it tends to make you a bit “bitter” so you say.

So to answer your question…

“I am not “bitter” about getting “cheated” on, I am disappointed I fought for something that wasn’t worth fighting for and that is what my posts are about.

-Kbeautfiulmind

I still laugh…

I still laugh at the day it happened.

So much cowardly in one phone call.

Promising me that with time we would meet again, that someday our love would continue.

I rememeber laughing that day as you stated your pathetic promise of “we will meet again,” as you used it to justify your decision to throw it all away.

What you didn’t rememeber is what kind of woman you had been with, what kind of woman you had known for over so many years…

I already knew you and what you were capable of.
I knew everything you did to the girl before me,
and I knew what you had done to me.
I already knew about her.
I knew I was being replaced.

Yet I played along and said,
“Yeah, maybe we will. The world is round for a reason right?”

I still laugh at the day it happened, because even though I listened…
I was praying our paths would never cross again.

-Kbeautifulmind

*Old piece I never posted:)