The date of the fourth

I saved the date.
You said good bye, the night cold as ice, as I stood in the rain, with that sharp pain in my heart.
I could not understand, what had I done wrong, all the pain you had already caused, but I brushed it right off.
So why was it me?
The one paying for this, watching you go, I couldn’t breathe.
I couldn’t understand.
No, I just couldn’t see pass you leaving.
But I saved the date.
And it’s crazy how wonderful time can be.
I’m better than I should be,
I’m better than you left me, when you gave me that call.
I’m stronger than that girl, the one you pushed around, as you played games with her heart.
I’m better than I should be,
I’m better than you left me, you see baby…
I don’t think you’d even know me anymore.
I’m confident and satisfied, my heart has healed from the wounds of your departure.
Because I’m better than I should be,
I’m better than you left me, now that I realized you did me a favor.
Now I love deeper,
Laugh so much louder,
Feel so much happier because I saved the date of the fourth.

-Kbeautifulmind

Love your’s

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I’ve never been so happy to be me:)

I use to envy others, not for material things because I could truly careless what others have in that sense.
However I use to envy the “struggle less” lives of others, their family bonds, people who had both of their parents in their lives, their grandparents, and over all family unity.
Why?
Well because I’ve never had that, I come from one parent who is now in heaven, we don’t have family very local and as much as I love the holiday’s, they are all pretty darn boring with just 5 of us. 
So I’d say, I wish my family was like this, I wish we could all get together like this, or have the bond they have…
But as you get to know people, read them, learn about their closet skeletons and really learn who they are…
You grow and you realized how wonderful it is to be YOU and to be a part of something as real as your own life, no matter how imperfect it seems.

So rememeber guys, you like I may not be lucky enough to have the ideal “brady bunch” family but that family is your family!
A family who loves you unconditionally, and that’s as good as it gets.
You like I may seem disfuntional to the rest but there is no one else that is you better than YOU.
And…
You like I may sometimes feel like the stress, bad luck, or hard moments may never end, but there is no one out there that can outshine and live this life any better than you can.
Love your’s.

-Kbeautifulmind

She believed in his ugly

“Why did you stay?”

I don’t know why I stayed? I don’t know if it’s because I wanted to fix him, I tend to always want to help or fix people.
I knew I loved him at one point, so love could have been apart of it.
or maybe I actually believed in him…
I think that could have been it, I believed he was better then what he represented himself to be.
I believed in his ugly, and was willing to let it get ugly to make him beautiful.

-Kbeautifulmind

What’s on your mind?
Show me your soul and all that you define.
I want to know you and all of your fears.
What makes you sad and what makes you cheer.
I want to know what excites you, and what turns you on.
I want you to show me what you like best, and what it would be like to be a part of this zest.

“I want to know how you think”

-Kbeautifulmind

She was

She was everything he wasn’t.
She woke up something in him, he never knew was there.
She had him doing things he never did.
She had him twirling her and dancing on his two left feet.
She had him singing songs he never listened to.
She had him picking out flowers and wanting to write love letters too.
She had him day dreaming of what their future life could be.
She had him thinking of what else he could do, what else he could do to be his very best.
She had him wanting to be the very best for her.
-Kbeautifulmind

All she could see in sight

It was the effort he made to know of her.
It was the way he tried to get out of his comfort zone, and the way he made her feel comfortable.
It was the way he held her hand and kissed it ever so gently as he made her blush and smile so heavily.
It was the way he made her laugh too, and how he made effort to never see her blue.
It was the way he stood out a side from all the other guys, who tried to get her attention…
but he was all she could see in sight.
-Kbeautifulmind

Forever

I always thought that we would be together.
Since the day I first met you, that smile scarred my soul and I just couldn’t forget you.
I could have sworn that we would be together, when we reunited I believed that we would last forever.
Look at us now just two lovers from the past, walking past each other, just two strangers who couldn’t last.
It just seems so sad when you think back, but sadly there is no coming back from the pain that has been caused.
Maybe the timing wasn’t right again, or maybe you weren’t ready to move on, maybe the timing was right but you weren’t ready to be drawn.
Drawn into commitment, since you couldn’t stop telling all those lies only causing us to continue to fight.
Maybe it was me, maybe I wasn’t as good as I could be,
or maybe I just tried too hard, and took my effort into extremes.
I guess we will never know because there ain’t no way I’m looking back, It just seems so sad when I think about the things you use to say, all the promises you made.
Because…
I always thought that we would be together, when we reunited I believed that we would last forever.

-Kbeautifulmind