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Hello Dear WordPress Followers,

I’d to take this moment to thank you all for reading my work, for being fans of what I write and believe in since I created my blog.

I’d also like to address that I’m working on writing more this year, expanding my words to touch more lives, and to share that I have some new and fun exciting project ideas on the way!

I’ve decided to create a “Professional Instagram” page, were I’d like to expose my poetry, quotes, short stories, advise through my knowledge, and display my soon to come videos or audio recordings!

I hope you all will follow and join me in this exciting journey!

Instagram: Kbeautifulmind__ (those are two _ _ )

Thanks y’all! I’m excited!

XO,

Kbeautifulmind

The other night…

I really believe that when some one passes away God gives them a pass sometimes to come back to earth when they are needed.

The signs we see, the things we run into, the dreams. 

They can’t just be concidense, can they? 

I truly don’t think so. 

Everyone always says, “They will always be with you.” and yeah you believe them to an extend but, it’s just not the same. 

You try so hard to believe that but, you find yourself looking for that person in other people. 

In your girl friends, in the mothers of others, and in everything you see and do. 

That little piece of your heart that’s now missing… is no where to be found. 

You look, you look, you try, and you try… 

But, nothing or anyone fills up that missing piece. 

The other night I realize, that no one will ever understand that. 

Specially not those who decide to be pitty and some how make your life about theirs. 

When someone that means so much to you passes away, not only does your life change or do you change… 

But, nothing will EVER be the same. 

And I have honestly discovered that this comes with good and bad. 

One good thing is that you are given a whole new pair of eyes. 

You learned to love and appreciate life, things, and most of all the people in your life. 

You find yourself telling those you love how much you love them constantly and even announcing it to the entire world. Not as a way of trying to be “annoying” or shove it in someone’s face… 

But, as a way of expressing yourself because you out of all people KNOW how short life truly is. 

The other night I realized that I shouldn’t be sorry for this. 

and… 

I also realized that, some people will never understand it. 

The other night I realized, that those we lose are truly always going to be there for us. 

I finally dreamed my mom after so long, and her words were as perfect as they’ve always been. 

“Don’t feel bad, there is nothing to be sorry for. Remember, God sees it all.” 

-Kbeautifulmind 

This time next year.

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“God is within her, she will not f a l l.”

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Last night I had a selfie session.
As I thought about how screwed up my life was this time last year…
I smiled, because I am so proud of myself and how much I have over came as a person.
How much I have grown, and how positive I kept my mind and spirit.
Then I thought about how much I still need to over come…
Something in my gut just tells me that all the worries I hold in my heart now, won’t be anything by this time next year.
Stay positive people!
Kbeautifulmind

No true friend will EVER

My first friendship betrayal happened my freshmen year in HS.
After that situation my mom gave me this talk as I cried in her lap…
I rememeber it because I wrote it down in my diary that night, and litterly made myself learn it.
I use to allow people to walk all over me.
Throughout highschool whenever anyone pulled some crap on me, I cut them right out of my life.
I didn’t care if I ended up alone, I just didn’t believe in dealing with these kind of people.
I didn’t find it worthy.

“No true friend will EVER talk about you.
No true friend will EVER spill out your secrets and anything that you’ve told them confidently.
No true friend will EVER disrespect you, or try to embarrass you in front of others.
No true friend will EVER be jealous of you, be envious of anything you have, or secretly wish that you don’t succeed.
A true friend however might just tell you like it is at times, or what you don’t wish to hear.
BUT never in a way where they be little you or make you feel worse than you might already feel.
Last but not least, always step back and observe the person, see what their intentions are and WHY they desire to be in your life.
Usually if you watch, you can see right through them.
If they do any of this and claim that it’s because they are your friend, those are not friends mija. They are people who stick around because they want to either be you, or are hoping to have the joy of watching you fail.”
-Maricela Lopez
Basically, no true friend will EVER betray you.

Thank you momma for being such a wonderful role model, mother and friend!
Thanks to you I learned to cherish and appreciate the good people I have in my life and I do my best to be as good to them as I can be.
I mean we are all human, we’ve said stupid things we regret, or have made the mistake of taking others for granted.
However, I believe that when the behavior repeats it’s self, you shouldn’t have to continue to allow those people to stay in your life.
Just like baseball, 1, 2, 3 strikes you’re out!
-Kbeautifulmind

Keep going.
The pain will pass.

I know it’s hard…
I know the tunnel seems long…
I know the tunnel is dark…
I know the tunnel makes you feel frightened…
I know it feels like you will never get to the other end…
I know it seems like the light is too far away…

But, keep going.
The pain will pass.
-Kbeautifulmind
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One of the hardest things on this earth for me, is seeing people suffer.
I want to help EVERYONE.
I want to help all of those I love that are in pain.
I want to help strangers, when I come across them and see that they are in pain.
Shoot… I want to help the people I see on “TV” that are in pain.
But, I know that I can’t help everyone.
I can’t heel everyone.
But maybe, just maybe…
My words will encourage as many people as possible.
Hang in there ya’ll.
Whatever it is, even if it doesn’t seem like it…
It WILL pass.
As long as you don’t give up!

Today…

Today I realized that I am a “chance” taker.

I take chances.

Mostly emotionally, but I take chances.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and I try to always see the very best in every single person I come across.

I am not sure what it is but, I believe that everyone comes into our lives for a reason.

It might not always be a good reason, but in the end…

there is always a reason.

Putting myself out there works, for me.

I do not allow my pride to hold me back…

I feel, and I express it loudly with out a care in the world.

If you hurt me, you’ll know.
If you make me happy, you’ll know.

If I am angry, you’ll know.

and sadness,

oh sadness…

it’s probably one of my most painful faces I can show.

My tears are there, and the pain pokes out my clothes.

Not only can you see my emotions, but if you are close enough…

you can feel them.

But I can say it works for me, this is how I live.

I don’t pretend, I can’t.

I’m real, I’m raw, and sometimes it’s ugly

but everyone has an ugly.

I don’t wait, at least not anymore.

I use to wait, hide, shield…

My mom would tell me… “Smile, wipe those tears and smile. Do not let others see your weakness.”

Many times she’d say “Ay Kelsey, you are too sensitive.”

As I grew I learned how to compose my emotions (Don’t worry I don’t walk around in public crying or something like that…)

I do smile, but I allow myself to feel and express myself first.

I approach the situation how I feel is correct or will work for me.

Once I’ve done that; I can finally breathe, look forward, and move on.

Therefor…

I take chances, and I am finally accepting that.

I am okay with this.

I know that sometimes I WILL get exactly what I want from taking these chances…

but,

sometimes…

Sometimes, I will get hurt.

Sometimes the outcome just won’t be what I wanted.

Sometimes I won’t get what I was hoping for.

and sometimes, or many times…

I will be disappointed. 

I am okay with this.

Because I can at least live, knowing I took the chance that my heart told me to take.

Today I realized that I am a “chance” taker.

I take chances.

But, I actually live.

If I died tomorrow, I would go in peace knowing that I actually lived

How many people can actually say that?

Some people die a long time before their hearts stop beating, I refuse to be one of them.

-Kbeautifulmind

Help yourself as you help other’s

Today’s society makes the simplicity of life a bit hard. It takes away from the important things in life and can truly take a tole on how to be a honest, loving, generous, humbled and good person.
Society has changed so much that everyone is trying too hard to be something their not instead of being them selves.

The truth is that it’s impossible for all of us to be the same.
Some of us are emotionally stronger then others.
Some have kinder hearts and are more humble, sympathetic, and giving.
Some of us are emotionally unstable that dealing with life is truly a challange.
Some of us are not confident, or we don’t know how to express ourselves that we live our lives lying trying to be something we are not.
We live our lives lying to others thinking we are doing them a favor not realizing we are only hurting ourselves.
And some people are just so ignorant and horrible that we see nothing wrong with the bad we do.

Unfortunately not all of our characteristics are always good and sadly some people will never find it in themselves to change, however some of us can take responsibility and better ourselves so that we don’t allow these people to affect our lives.

I personally am a big believer of fair chances, I give everyone that strolls through my life a fair chance by believing in them, trusting them and trying to see the good in them.
I’ve had people tell me that this is why people walk all over me but the truth is that I think we all have good within ourselves so I believe in others.
We just need to find it and approach it.
Some of us may make mistakes and if no one is believing in us then how are we suppose to see that we need to change our ways?

So what’s my point?

Well… (Sorry as you can tell I am a rambler)

My point is that weather we are trying to change our selves for the better or want to help someone else get better we must understand a couple of things…

1. Self responsibility.
2. Be open minded.
3. Accept our wrongs and the wrongs of other’s.
4. Don’t judge them or ourselves
5. Find a solution.

Self responsibility:

Self responsibility comes with in ourselves and no one else. If we want to change and better ourselves from something we have done or from how we use to be and view things then we must be responsible. We can sit here and blame others for how we are or what we have done but not only is this not true, it won’t get us anywhere.
This view on life doesn’t fix anything it only puts us in this unreal fantasy as we try to convince ourselves that we are good people or we have done right even though we KNOW we are not being the best US.

No matter the reasoning if you’re stuck in this situation you must get out of it.
Weather you KNOW in your heart and soul that you are correct you must be an adult. Realize that what is done is done and take it as a learning experience to better yourself. Take responsibility for what YOU can change and stop blaiming others.

Open minded:
This mostly pertains to those of you trying to help someone else.

Of course there comes a point where you realize that some people will never change and in those cases you just have to let them be and let them learn on their own.
But sometimes all a person needs is someone who can be open minded and who can believe in the potential that is with in them.
As for yourselves, it all depends on how you look at life.
Is the glass half full or half empty?
If you’re open minded and move forward with a positive mindset then that’s how you will accommodate positive change in your life.

Accept our wrongs and the wrongs of others:

Let’s start with you.
Have you done something you know wasn’t right?
Did you hurt someone and there is no way you can take it back now?

First off, it’s not the end of the world!
Second you are human and sometimes we make mistakes but it’s up to you how you move forward with it.
Accept your wrongs, learn from it so you won’t do it again and move forward. Ask for forgiveness even if it’s just out loud in your own presence and live. If you don’t forgive yourself or accept it, you are allowing it to haunt you for a long time or even the rest of your life.

Now, sometimes in this life we are so kind to other’s and those people hurt us, back stab us, take advantage of us, walk all over us, unappreciate us, and break our hearts.
Sadly this is all a part of life, it’s a pain that we are all going to feel at one point. It’s a painful situation in your life that scars you and truly leaves a mark and sometimes you never get the closure or apology you desire.
So what do you do?
Well dwelling or pouting for the rest of your life isn’t an option, so…
Accept the wrongs of those people, take a deep breath and tell yourself
“I forgive them”,
learn something from the experience, and move forward to find the happiness you deserve.
Don’t, I repeat DON’T let this hurt, anger, and sadness take over you!
Holding on to the pain will only hurt you and holding a grudge or hating someone takes up more energy then you need to use on someone or something that shouldn’t matter. 

Don’t judge them or ourselves:

Remember the saying don’t point the finger if the thumb is pointing back at you?

Well, like I said before we are all humans.
Don’t be ignorant to the mistakes of other’s by judging them because you don’t know what it’s like to be in their shoe’s and if you did you wouldn’t want to be judged either.
When we as human beings make mistakes we tend to already feel guilty or shameful for what we have done, therefor you judging them doesn’t make things any better.
Plus you’re not perfect so treat other’s like you hope to be treated if you were ever in their shoes.

Find a solution:

If your trying to help someone then be the friend they need and honestly say the words they need, or find the resources they need to better them selves and become the good people they want to be.

Now remember you can say you’re sorry a million times but that doesn’t mean you truly are unless you show it.
You can also lead a horse to the water but you can’t make him drink it.
So if you want to change then actually do it!
Don’t just say your sorry, BE sorry for all your wrongs, learn from them and don’t do it again.

Wishing everyone a beautiful journey to becoming a better YOU or making a difference into the life of other’s,

-kbeautifulmind