Please don’t let me get one of those…

Today I want to talk about cheating.

I know it’s sadly pretty normal now in days in today’s society, but is it really a fairy tale to hope for someone who only has eye’s for you?

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I went to my first Dodger game of the season, since I’m finally out of school for the summer and I LOVE my boys in blue.

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While enjoying my Friday night, I experienced a very awkward situation. I had experienced stuff like this before, however sitting there for three hours feeling WEIRD, really pissed me off.

And all I could think was… “Lord, all I ask is that you please don’t let me get one of those.”

Anyway, to my story…

So I’m sitting their watching the Game with my brother and this man keeps looking at me. Not looking at me like I look familiar, or like there is something on my face. Looking at me, like in his mind he was un dressing me with his eyes, and he was imagining exactly what he could do with me if he had the chance. I discreetly watched him as he’d check out the tits on another girl, the ass and hips on another one. But since I was in the row in front of him and his FAMILY to the side, he’d watch the game, look over at me, and smile.

Now his family was pretty big, he had three boys and a beautiful little girl about age five. His wife was very pretty, but insecurity and discomfort bleed through her pours.
I could tell just by analyzing them, he was a cheater and she dealt with it.
She looked over at me a couple of times as she watched him look, and would just look down on her phone.
I paid no attention to him, never once gave him the attention he was looking for, and one time I even gave him a dirty look.
Because he was dirty to me, and it was very upsetting to see how he was acting.

I wanted to tell him something so bad!
I wanted to tell her, “You are SO BEAUTIFUL, why do you allow this?”

But all I could do was pray, and in that moment I said to god.
“Look god, I KNOW cheating is pretty normal nowindays, and MAYBE we humans were not meant to be tied down to one person since we seem to get bored easily, BUT some of us really do desire a healthy marriage and a team mate who only has eye’s for us. Now I know to an extent it’s normal to look, we all do it BUT please, please god, if marriage is in my destiny, don’t let me get one of those.”

What scares me and makes me want to shut down is that I see it all the time…

On Facebook I have friend’s who shout out their men with statuses like “You are the best husband I could ever ask for.”
Yet we know he sleeps around.

On instagram woman quote to be so happy with their men…
Yet he is sending private messages to us single girls, and has no pictures of her on his IG.

Of course in part, those single girls who go along with it are JUST as wrong, but in the end it’s no one’s fault that his eyes are wondering and his mind wants to act on it.

Love is one of the scariest things in the world.
I use to love the idea of falling in love so much, and the thought of meeting the one would make me so happy.

If I’m being honest, now it scares the crap out of me.

I no longer desire marriage and kids as much as I use to.

-Kbeautifulmind

Appearance is the first level of attraction.
However, looks can only go so far.
Your personality, lack of being able to keep a interesting conversation going, attitude towards life, and lack of ambition will quickly turn off a smart woman.

Don’t get too comfortable, based on your appearance.

-Kbeautifulmind

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He woke up and it was too darn early…
The alarm kept going off.
It was a gloomy morning, and it looked like it was going to rain.

He looked next to him and there she was, naked, laying on her stomach, with her curly hair all over the place.
As he watched her breathe and sleep so peacefully he could still see the scars on her back from the knife of her previous lover.
He caressed them softly and thought…

“I want to protect her. I could truly love her someday, I want to be the one to heal that heart so that she never feels pain again.”

She woke up, turned and looked at him.

“Good morning!” He said.

“Good morning handsome,” and she smiled.

“Have you been awake this whole time?”

“No, but I did wake up before you and I was just thinking, as I watched you sleep…”

“About?”

“I was wondering… do you still feel the pain? Do you still remember him?”

She paused and saw it all in her head again, but it no longer moved her.

“I’ll never forget; How can you forget one of the most memorable lessons of your life?
You can’t, the lessons of life are our best teachers.” She smiled and kissed him softly.

In that moment he knew…
He knew that he could truly in deed love her someday, and that she would sincerely love him back and also heal his wounds.

“The broken pair”

-Kbeautifulmind

He’s been hurt

He’s been hurt, and he’s still hurting.
But I can’t do this again, I’ve done this before.
I can’t fix him.
I want to, but I can’t.
Fixing another broken heart can cause me to break my own heart again.
Once he is healed, he’ll pack up and leave me.
I can’t fix him.
I want to, but I can’t bare going through this again.
-Kbeautifulmind

Woman Crush Wednesday
You give her a shout-out, you say she’s the one.
But what does that do when your screwing other ones?
got damn you got nerve…
Choose one, stick with her, man prove something!
Don’t be lying on her, woman can see your bull shit.
She has stuck around because she cares, not because she’s dumb and doesn’t know the games you’re playing.
If you can’t man up then let her go, and watch someone else appreciate her.
Don’t lose her, she’s YOUR girl!
Do you care?
Your heart would never lie to you.
Listen to it.
There will always be plenty of bad chick’s out there, but you’ll never be happy till you love one.
-Kbeautifulmind

💜

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…and it was in that moment, as she sat underneath that beautiful tree that she felt true peace and  happiness in her heart. It was the breeze of the wind in her hair, and the the way the sun peeked through the beautiful flowers and touched her skin, that made her see that she will never be alone.
For her angel will always be there with her, right by her side.
-Kbeautifulmind

The one that got away…

Never commit to someone if you’re truly not ready due to self development.
However, don’t fear commitment because your afraid you might not be ready to settle down with one person.
In other words, let them go if you’re okay with the fact that you might not get them back.
You see, the universe doesn’t bring you the right person when YOU are ready, because no one is EVER ready for change.
The universe brings them when the time seems right.
If you let them go knowing they are what you will want “someday,” someday might come and as you’re ready for them they may be in the arms of the one that realized their worth and was willing to take that chance with them.

-Kbeautifulmind

The good are watching too…

Some men and women seem to feel so proud while trashy women/men want them, when they are in a relationship.
I mean yeah, that’s awesome!
Go ahead play the game, lose the one you love for those five minutes of pleasure. Lose the good girl/guy, the one who has stood by your side, for the easy, wild, and free party girl or “rich” party guy.
Just remember, as those same women/men desired you for the way they see you treat your main. Your guy/girl friends/other men and women were also watching how your main treated you.
Only thing with real worthy men/women is that they patiently wait till you lose, then they move in with the goal to conquer your home and replace your place in their hearts for good.
-Kbeautifulmind

I’m switching the roles

Childhood is when we learn the most.
We are not born racist, prejudice, or ignorant.
We are born with a blank chip and our parents, friends, schools, and society are what make us.
If you’re a parents with good intentions, it can be a bit hard to raise a child in today’s society, but if you don’t push to try and lead them down the right path then you have just become a part of the providers of garbage that society feeds our kids.

I don’t have kids of my own yet, but when I do, I have decided I’m switching the roles on them.
Everyone’s life goal in this world is to find happiness.
Usually happiness in the mind of a woman comes to the conclusion of having a husband, kids, a beautiful home, and a nice future with these people along their side.
Men also aspire for marriage, but unfortunately most of them weren’t taught the same value and importance behind it.

Sadly this seems to be the reason why today’s generation is so caught up in “situtionships” 

Parents didn’t stress this enough and society has taught men to play games until THEY are ready, leaving more girls and women crying then ever before.

We teach girls to shrink themselves, to make themselves smaller, otherwise they will threaten “the man” and push him away.

And the only reason why men actually feel this way is because we teach men that they should always be above, or one step ahead of the woman, and if they are not, they have failed.

We teach girls to aspire to marriage, to make their life choices always keeping in mind that the main and most important goal is marriage.
We tell them that marriage is the important source of joy, we tell them that it will bring them the love they desire and the mutual support they need to feel complete.
This can be very true, and having a successful marriage with happiness should be apart of their goals but we shouldn’t teach them that it will be their only source of happiness.
If so, shouldn’t we be teaching it to our boys too?
Why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage and we don’t teach boys the same?
We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings in the way that boys are because they will be frowned upon, but we teach boys that being sexual and having that kind of “game” is a good thing.
Don’t we see who we are hurting?
Women are crying, but men aren’t learning to appreciate the women the universe brought to their lives to complete them.
The universe keeps bringing these men their other ribs, soul mates, “the one” and they take them for granted because “they are not ready” to let the game go.
Because they were not taught to cherish “the woman” when she comes along.

If I bring children into this world I am making a promise to switch these roles.
I will teach my son how to love, I will teach him that if the universe (or “god” for those who believe) brings him a good girl/woman, he must appreciate her and respect her if he loves her. He must not lie, he must not play games, or take her for granted as long as she is giving him the same respect.
I will teach him that if she isn’t, he has the right to walk away like a gentleman with out cheating, betraying, and lying.

I will teach my daughter how to love, and to always cherish and appreciate “the man” that the universe (or god) brings into her life with out giving him everything she has. I will teach her independencey, I will teach her to have something to show for herself without losing herself in society and forgetting to have self respect.
I will teach her that her voice matters, and she has the same rights as everyone else.
I will teach her she is equal to a male NO MATTER what others say, and that she should do ONLY what makes her happy, despite of what others say.

I will teach my children, that happiness and love should be an equal goal in both of their lives, because without it, living is useless and boring.

-Kbeautifulmind