Tag: woman

I want to love a whole.

Half: 

haf/Submit
noun
1.
either of two equal or corresponding parts into which something is or can be divided.
“the northern half of the island”

Complete: 

verb

4.

make (something) whole or perfect.
“he only needed one thing to complete his happiness”
synonyms: finish off, round off, top off, crown, cap, complement
“the outfit was completed with a veil”

I use to dream of finding my “other half.“

Both times I have fallen in love I actually believed I had found (him).

Because before them I didn’t feel whole.

I didn’t love myself.

I didn’t believe in myself.

I didn’t feel that I could actually be happy being alone.

Unfortunately, I am not one of the only people who have felt this way, and what’s even more crazy is people go their whole lives feeling this way.

This is where people screw up.

They feel it’s normal and just go with it, until they settle for anyone because they believe that without “someone” by their side they are not complete.

What’s funny is that before the relationships even ended, I was always looking for “something,” something that would take away the empty feeling I had. When I couldn’t figured it out, I assumed that it was the relationship, the person’s fault for the way I was feeling.

Now that I’ve learned, I’ve realized that the first time there was nothing missing, I was missing. The self love, the self confidence, the self trust, is what was missing.

You can’t fully love someone else like they deserve, if you don’t love yourself.

The second time, I was missing so bad that I actually convinced myself to believe that I deserved the “type” of love I was receiving.

I’m still learning.

So far, I have learned the definitions of “half” and “complete.”

and I now know I don’t want either or to define the person I end up with for the rest of my life.

I don’t want an “other half,” I want a WHOLE.

I want a whole person, someone who knows exactly who they are, what they represent, what they want, and who loves themselves enough to know how to love ME.

I don’t want to feel complete when this person comes along, or for them to feel like I complete them.

I want us to already be complete, only to come along and complement each others lives for the better.

I don’t want to be someone else’s ideal “Ms. Right,” or “The One.”

I don’t want someone that has been looking for someone like me their whole lives.

I want to fall into someone.

I want to come long and change their lives for the best.

I want to make them feel things they have never felt before.

I want to add to their happiness, I want someone who before me was already happy with themselves.

I want to be someones whole and I want them to be my whole.

I want us to be two wholes who simply just deserve each other, who simply just realized we wanted to to continue to grow while we watch the other grow.

I don’t want to ever end up with another half, or feel like a half again.

I refuse to settle for someone to complete me.

I want a whole someone, so that I can live with their all, learn about their all, and love their all and whole entire persona.

I want the next time I fall in love, to just simply be a whole who loves another whole and entire other person.

I want someone who can give me their all, while I also give them my all.

-Kbeautifulmind

Unstoppable

She took everything life threw at her with a smile.
Yes there was times she broke down, but she made sure to do it alone.
For she refused to give any one the power to see that even a strong woman like her felt like giving up at times.
She got close, but never gave up, because she was unstoppable.
-Kbeautifulmind

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So many times I hear men say,
“Women/girls are so needy, they can never be happy!”
“Do women really like that romantic shit? Why do I need to buy her some flowers, or her favorite chocolate to show her I care?”
(In my head I respond: Why should she give you a bomb ass blow job, or take care of any of your needs on the daily?) (Just a reminder men, you can get a nice bouquet of flowers for like $20 and you’ll both be happy.)

Some men STILL see nothing wrong with going days with out talking to her, with going out and not bothering with her, with forgetting to call back/or replying to a text that takes 2 FREAKEN SECONDS. They see nothing wrong with not reminding her they care, and get annoyed when she “complains” about what she’s missing.

Now I get it some men lack the romance bone, but if you have a good woman effort is ALWAYS noticed!
If you have a woman who wakes you up to take care of your needs, who pays attention, and who makes effort, just rememeber that expectations are usually that you return the care and love.
A woman doesn’t ask for attention because she’s “needy” or wants you to be like a puppy dog at her feet ready to bark when she calls. (At least not all women)
She longs for that late night call or morning call because it tells her you’re thinking about her.
She squirms at the little details and surprises because it reminds her you care and she’s been on your mind.
She blushes at the kisses on the four head, the kiss on the hand when your driving, and the smack on her ass when she walks by because it tells her you desire her.
She sighs at the gentleman gestures like opening the door, holding her hand, and holding her close because it tells her you want to protect her.

If she’s asking for these things and you are not doing them, it’s not that she is being “needy” or “annoying.”
Don’t you get it? She cares a shit load about you!

It’s that you’re the man that holds her heart, you’re the man she wants, and so she just wants to feel wanted TOO.

It’s honestly very simple, and if you’re not doing it because your intentions are not to be her lover and or protector than step aside already and let another man take over.

This goes both ways ladies!
If you want flowers, take care of your man, make him feel wanted too.
-Kbeautifulmind

Even if it’s just temporary, hold me.
Even if it’s just for tonight, love me.
Even if it’s just today, tell me if you think I’m lovely.
Even if it’s just for an hour, kiss me.
Even if it doesn’t last, try this with me.
Even if nothing is forever, will you be my nothing?
-Kbeautifulmind

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She had a serious love for books.
Novels in particular, but really anything that stirred up her mind and imagination. They thought her what she wanted to learn, warned her of what she needed to avoid, kept her mind positive and at peace, and also distracted her from the bad times in her life.
Books were true happiness and love in her eyes.
-Kbeautifulmind

“It’s sad you know?”

“What is?”

“That he hasn’t noticed?
He hasn’t noticed that our hearts skip to the same beat, our bodies desire each other like magnets, and our souls have been searching their whole lives for the vibe we share.”

-Kbeautifulmind

It wasn’t the rose

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It wasn’t the sand, the hugs, the rose, or the small talk that made me still smell the ocean from that night.
It was the way we rushed into each other with such deep craving.
The way he kissed me deeply, making me feel desired and missed.
It was the way he lifted my dress slowly making me shake with excitment with every touch of his finger tips.
It was the way he entered me for the first time, fueling my hunger I had for his touch.
It was the way both of our hearts rushed and our throats gasped for air.
It was that erotic, explosive way he made love to me, that still makes my stomach drop everytime I go back to that night.

-Kbeautifulmind