Tag: self love

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I’ve always lived a pretty hard life.
Finacially things have never been at their best, and over all god has truly picked on me to carry-on a B I G load of stress.
So yes I’m the person that constantly thinks…
“MY life would be so much easier if I had more money.”

“MONEY could really get rid of all this stress right now?”

“Do you know how happy I’d be if I had a lot of money?”

And to tell you all the truth.
Money really truly could fix A L O T of my problems right now…

But money could never give me happiness.

That is something I have needed to find on my own, with in myself, with in my struggles, and the life god has gave me.

Money doesn’t buy happiness.
Fame doesn’t make you any less human.
It might make “society” a little easier.
It might make the standards we have to live up to a little less stressful.
But LIFE in it’s self, to truly L I V E has nothing to do with “everything” you have.
You can only enjoy life and survive life with soul food, inner peace, self love, comfort, and support from the rest of the humans in your life and the love of all humanity in it’s self.
Today, tomorrow and always we should smile at people… a simple hello, I love you, or asking how their day is going can save their life.
A simple ear to listen can make them keep pushing.
A simple hug can remind them that they are not alone.
Live like you are dying and love like you are dying because you never know what kind of demons others are fighting on the inside.
You never know what kind of emotional or physical sicknesses those around you are struggling to fight.
Over use I love you and count your blessing!
Remember, life is a gift and health is a privilege. †
-Kbeautifulmind

I want to thank you

I want to thank you.

I want to thank you for all the simple things.

The laughs, the comfort, the peace.

I want to thank you.

I want to thank you because with you I felt myself again.

With you I learned to smile again, to really laugh, to relax, and really breathe.

You see before you life and people destroyed me.

These things that happened to me stripped me, they demolished who I was, what I believed in…

and you, this stranger came into my life and helped me in so many ways that you have no idea of.

I want to thank you, because a part of my healing, self love, and happiness is all thanks to you.

-Kbeautifulmind

Woman Crush Wednesday

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“Don’t build a wall around your own suffering or it may devour you from the inside.” – Frida Kahlo🌹

One of my favorite quotes by such an enchanting, smart, and unique woman.
She not only understood the power of love, but most importantly understood the power of S E L F 💕 L O V E.
She understood that one must find peace and hope within ourselves in order to be happy.
We can’t let the betrayals of others destroy our self being and believes.
We must fight off the poison others try to venom our lives with.
We MUST always stay true to ourselves…
After all, remember we are stuck with ourselves until the day we no longer breathe.
Love the’ as much as you have loved or will love another.
Kbeautifulmind♡

Here I am…

Here I am on his bed once again.
His dirty little secret is what I am.
He doesn’t love me, he never will, for I am not relationship material.
He loves another and this I know, yet I have no one to call my own.
So here I am on his bed once again, as he talks dirty to me and rips off my dress.
He takes my panties off with his teeth, and for a moment I feel pleased.
Until I think of her and I, and how I can’t compare to her and what she’s got.
Here I am on his bed once again, the other woman, the one who feeds him his piece of cake.
The one she cries about, and hates so much, the one that doesn’t let him arrive on time.
I sometimes wish I could explain myself, tell her he’s the one I love, but I don’t dare.
For what I feel doesn’t matter here, I am just his little whore and she’s the one he can’t let go.
Here I am on his bed once again, degrading myself because I have no one to call my own.

-Kbeautifulmind

I wrote this, only because I can only imagine how mistresses feel and why they must continue on with that role.
Is it love?
I’d wish I could understand what makes women betray other women in this way?

I want to love a whole.

Half: 

haf/Submit
noun
1.
either of two equal or corresponding parts into which something is or can be divided.
“the northern half of the island”

Complete: 

verb

4.

make (something) whole or perfect.
“he only needed one thing to complete his happiness”
synonyms: finish off, round off, top off, crown, cap, complement
“the outfit was completed with a veil”

I use to dream of finding my “other half.“

Both times I have fallen in love I actually believed I had found (him).

Because before them I didn’t feel whole.

I didn’t love myself.

I didn’t believe in myself.

I didn’t feel that I could actually be happy being alone.

Unfortunately, I am not one of the only people who have felt this way, and what’s even more crazy is people go their whole lives feeling this way.

This is where people screw up.

They feel it’s normal and just go with it, until they settle for anyone because they believe that without “someone” by their side they are not complete.

What’s funny is that before the relationships even ended, I was always looking for “something,” something that would take away the empty feeling I had. When I couldn’t figured it out, I assumed that it was the relationship, the person’s fault for the way I was feeling.

Now that I’ve learned, I’ve realized that the first time there was nothing missing, I was missing. The self love, the self confidence, the self trust, is what was missing.

You can’t fully love someone else like they deserve, if you don’t love yourself.

The second time, I was missing so bad that I actually convinced myself to believe that I deserved the “type” of love I was receiving.

I’m still learning.

So far, I have learned the definitions of “half” and “complete.”

and I now know I don’t want either or to define the person I end up with for the rest of my life.

I don’t want an “other half,” I want a WHOLE.

I want a whole person, someone who knows exactly who they are, what they represent, what they want, and who loves themselves enough to know how to love ME.

I don’t want to feel complete when this person comes along, or for them to feel like I complete them.

I want us to already be complete, only to come along and complement each others lives for the better.

I don’t want to be someone else’s ideal “Ms. Right,” or “The One.”

I don’t want someone that has been looking for someone like me their whole lives.

I want to fall into someone.

I want to come long and change their lives for the best.

I want to make them feel things they have never felt before.

I want to add to their happiness, I want someone who before me was already happy with themselves.

I want to be someones whole and I want them to be my whole.

I want us to be two wholes who simply just deserve each other, who simply just realized we wanted to to continue to grow while we watch the other grow.

I don’t want to ever end up with another half, or feel like a half again.

I refuse to settle for someone to complete me.

I want a whole someone, so that I can live with their all, learn about their all, and love their all and whole entire persona.

I want the next time I fall in love, to just simply be a whole who loves another whole and entire other person.

I want someone who can give me their all, while I also give them my all.

-Kbeautifulmind