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Hello Dear WordPress Followers,

I’d to take this moment to thank you all for reading my work, for being fans of what I write and believe in since I created my blog.

I’d also like to address that I’m working on writing more this year, expanding my words to touch more lives, and to share that I have some new and fun exciting project ideas on the way!

I’ve decided to create a “Professional Instagram” page, were I’d like to expose my poetry, quotes, short stories, advise through my knowledge, and display my soon to come videos or audio recordings!

I hope you all will follow and join me in this exciting journey!

Instagram: Kbeautifulmind__ (those are two _ _ )

Thanks y’all! I’m excited!

XO,

Kbeautifulmind

2018

This new year, place yourself where you can grow and learn.

Place yourself where you feel safe.

Place yourself where you feel comfortable.

Place yourself with people that make it feel like home.

Place yourself where you can help, but don’t let it drain you.

Place yourself where you feel loved, but don’t let it change you.

Place yourself where you can listen, but don’t let it overwhelmed you.

Place yourself where you belong, but don’t let anyone take advantage of you.

This new year place yourself where you can grow and learn; not anywhere where you’re devalued.

-Kbeautifulmind

Do you understand me?

Do you understand me?

Do you know the pain I hold inside?

Taken advantage of, my childhood destroyed.

Life came along, and robbed me of all I’ve ever loved.

In several ways I could have went out, too many to count.

I was a fool, but I couldn’t seem to figure me out.

I couldn’t figure life out, suffocating in the pain and the substances is all I knew.

Do you understand me?

_________________

I don’t understand you.

No one ever will.

Because only you know what you’ve felt.

And what you have dealt with, you’ve never shared it.

I see your sorrow though, and I can feel it.

I see your pain, and where they’ve robbed you.

I see what life has done to you.

I know you’re lost, I see your hurt, I know that I can get a call and just like that you’ll be gone.

I don’t understand you,

but I feel for you…

because I see you.

-Kbeautifulmind

My book is now available to order… and I might barf…

At exactly 10:49pm I opened up the email that stated the proof of my book had been approved by create space. 😱

Ladies and Gentlemen… my first book is now up for sale! 🤷🏻‍♀️

 I don’t know what to think, I honestly feel like I need to barf (tmi) BUT really… 🤢

I wrote it and self published it, and it’s something so intimate and personal that I don’t know what it will represent… 😳 

But, I’m proud and I’m ready! 💁🏻💖

Get your copy at: https://www.createspace.com/6684982

#yupthereitis #firstbook #getyourcopy #intimacytopublicity #yasearmó #selfpublishing #selfpublished #checkoutmyblog #kbeautifulmind #twoyearslater

“I’m so proud of you”

“Congratulations on all your great efforts and accomplishments… I’m so proud of you. I’ve always believed in you girls…”

“I am a changed man,” he said…
“I’d like to apologize for anything I might have said…
I’d like to apologize “if” at any time, I hurt you, girls…”

Oh shit, I am really reading this…
even after all these years you dare to say “If”?

“I am a changed man,” he said…

Oh, you changed? Is that suppose to mean something to me, is that what you’re saying?

Let me back track to my childhood for a bit…
Forget it, I’ve let that rest.

Let me back track to age fifteen… When I believed that “maybe” you deserved a chance…
Forget it, I’ve let that rest.

Let me back track to my freshmen year in college… “You’re dumb, you’ll never amount to anything… the day you die… I’m going to thank god for it.”
Forget it, I’ve forgiven you and also let that rest.

Let me back track to a couple years ago…

You said my mom deserved the sickness she was given, yet she was the one who raised us while she was living…
How does such a warrior deserve such sickness?
Even though I’ve accepted that was her journey, I still have moments when I can’t seem to understand or believe it.
Why is it that the one that did what was right, deserved to go, and the bastard that showed us nothing but hate and violence, deserved more?

And who made you the superior to speak such words?

With time I learned that your words were nothing but words, coming from an ill man who’s own childhood had brought him to this mindset of urge.
The urge to hurt those around him and destroy…
I feel sorry for you, I do. Yet, this is still not a good enough excuse.

So many times I wish you would have been there, and when I grew up I realize how blessed I was to not be so privileged.

Yet, here you are “proud and all” what an “honor”…
Do you really think somehow you deserve to be loved by your daughters?

Do you think you have the right to be proud of MY accomplishments?

“You guys are my only ones always forever?”

Only ones? 26 years later?

I think you must have forgotten, mom was the only one there, you were a no-show…
She worked to die, we never saw her…
But she had to be tough because you weren’t man enough.

Why don’t you do us both a favor and pretend we are dead too.

“I just want to tell you that no matter what happens, you guys will never be dead to me or will stop being my beautiful daughters. Because the day you two were born marks the day that you will forever be my daughters and I will wait forever with open arms…”

Ooohhh, now your arms are open?
I guess you didn’t know that your little girl would grow up to be so strong, so capable, so accomplished, or so admirable

They say be careful with the things you say, because once you say them you can’t take them back.

Let me back track…
“You’re dumb, you’ll never amount to anything…”
Forget it, I’ve let it rest.

You say you’re proud?
Well, sit back, because I am just getting started.

-Kbeautifulmind