My Tradition

When I was ten years old my mother and I started a personal new years eve tradition.

I got the idea from a show, I had seen some episode where a lady wrote a letter to her future self every year on her birthday.

I figured it be something we can do together, so my mom and I chose New Years Eve.

Along with the red underwear, and the money under the shoe; My mom and I added a third tradition to our list.

We began by reading our letter we wrote the last New Year’s Eve a couple days before.

We gave each other a couple of days to reflect, then on New Year’s Eve we wrote a new one Titling it “Open in (enter new year here)”

I knew where my mom kept hers last year so I had to open both hers and mines right before 2015 rang in.

My mom like always was such a positive soul, as she hoped that the new year didn’t bring her death.

Unfortunately, it did not workout that way. God needed another angel and her work here on earth was done.

I read both of our letters and continued my tradition on my own.

A couple of days ago I read my letter where I held my New Year resolutions, words of advise, and a couple of “To-do’s” and “Not to-do’s.”

One of my favorites were:

“Let other’s speak”

I tend to get excited when I am having a interesting conversation and I cut people off (not on purpose though.)

“Be careful who you trust”

I tend to have the issue of trusting just anyone and can sometimes put myself in danger do to this but, that has definitely changed.

“Don’t give up on love, continue to believe in it but don’t be an idiot either.”

That last one was funny!

I tend to have such a naive heart at times. I always want to see the good in everyone.

Anyway, I found to discover that I achieved almost all of my New Year resolutions, I followed most of my words of advise and for the most part most of my to-do’s and not to-do’s. But, most importantly I lived this year. I discovered myself, I enjoyed the moments, and I learned to accept and let go when I had no control over the situation.

I’m really excited to see how much I have accomplished and will be accomplishing in 2016.

My blog has also succeeded tremendously and I’d like to thank all my readers and supporters for that!

Thank you all!

-Kbeautifulmind

Oh 2014, the year to start living…

Hi Everyone!
Happy new year!

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Do not wait until the conditions are perfect to begin. Beginning makes the conditions perfect. -Alan Cohen

For my first post for 2014 I just want to say “I’m not afraid anymore…” – Home Alone (I love these movies) ha ha.

What I meant by that is…
I been afraid for about three years now. Not just afraid about one thing but about many things.
In 2011 I was heart broken, scarred myself to continue to be afraid of love, trust, and happiness. I was afraid of friendship, new beginnings and moving forward. That lasted until late 2013… sadly to admit. I dwelled on all that had hurt me and on all I had done to hurt others actually making myself believe I was a horrible person… and every time something happened or I got hurt again I’d say “this is my karma”
In 2012 I became more angry then afraid wondering why everyone else around me seemed happy while I was still hurting, then at the very end of 2012 the year smacked me in the face and told me “Kels! Snap out of it, there is other more important thing’s…” as my mom was diagnosed I realized there was more to life, more things to worry about, to value.
In 2013 I had mixed feelings for life and how it all works as I wondered what the point of life was anyway…

However; this year…

I’m not afraid anymore!

I’ve finally took a deep breath, inhaled life for what it has to offer and decided that life goes on past the bad times, the regrets, the mistakes and the sadness and you have to move forward with it.

Times will be hard, sad, stressful and so on but nothing lasts forever so we must live and try to relax through it all.

With god by my side and my faith in him, I know 2014 will be just right.

Small thought;

Kbeautifulmind