Maybe I’m just hard to love.
Maybe I’m just hard to handle.
Maybe I’m just hard to please.
Maybe I’m just hard to attend.
Maybe I’m just hard to listen to.
Maybe I’m just hard to care for.
Maybe I’m just hard to take a chance with.
Maybe I’m just hard to commit to.
Maybe I’m just hard to love.
Maybe, just maybe, I’m just hard to love.
-Kbeautifulmind
You robbed me.
Days, months, a year and more later, I can finally speak of it.
You robbed me.
You robbed me for my beauty, my innocence, my strenght, my confidence, for everything I believed in, you saw my vulnerability and you stripped me for everything I was.
You were so insecure and unhappy with yourself, and I was your victim.
From the minute we got involved romantically, you played me.
You played me, you’d lie and lie to me, and you’d blame and blame me.
You brought me down to my knees, to tears, to insecurity, to pain…
pain that made me believe it was all my fault.
Pain that made me believe I deserved it, pain that made me believe there was something wrong with ME.
You never hit me, you never abused me, but your cheating was just as bad or even worse.
You were a good friend before our involvement, but you were the worse “lover” anyone could ever ask for…
and I cant believe that through out all those years I never saw it.
You knew I was nice, you knew I was selfless, honorable, loyal, respectful, but most of all you knew I was passionate.
You knew I wouldn’t give up on you, you knew I’d fight for you, you knew I’d forgive you… over and over again…
So you robbed me, you be littled me, you took advantage of me, you took me for granted.
You destroyed me.
You took advantage of my passion and fight and you weakened me.
You robbed me, you robbed me for all I was…
and days, months, a year and more later I can finally talk about it…
Because I have gratefully found myself again.
-Kbeautifulmind
“What will you never give up on?”
Happiness, I will never give up on being genuinely happy.
-Kbeautifulmind
My mom, my family, my friends, and lovers, they’ve always praised it.
What you ask?
Well my big heart.
They’ve always told me that having such a heart was a privilege to have, a unique gift in deed.
My mother would say…
Being nice will always bring you good karma.
People will always envy your strenght and courage, because they know that even when times are bad you’ll always come out on top.
My family would say…
We love how you don’t fight for the pointless things, you always let things go and let god take care of what you can’t control.
My friends would say…
You’re always here when we need you, and you listen to our thoughts.
You are caring, you go the extra mile and you always try.
You’re a shoulder to lean on, when someone needs to cry.
My lovers would say…
You are so compassionate, and you believe in (me.)
You don’t give up, and you fight for the both of us.
You don’t hold grudges and you truly forgive.
You give so many chances, and still trust in thee.
All these things were nice to hear, and I know it benefit them all…
But why wasn’t anyone ever honest with me?
Why didn’t they say that being this way would also affect me in deed?
People know how to take advantage of me, assuming I’ll always be “okay,” because I am strong.
Why didn’t they tell me that being nice would bring me more tears than smiles, pretty rainbows, and graceful love?
Why didn’t they tell me that wearing my heart on my sleeve would get me hurt, for the most part?
Why didn’t they warn me, that people would always know that it was the perfect weapon they could use against me?
Isn’t it crazy?
That no one could tell me that what they loved so much about me, is the one thing that would destroy me?
and this was something they all knew…
-Kbeautifulmind
So many times I hear men say,
“Women/girls are so needy, they can never be happy!”
“Do women really like that romantic shit? Why do I need to buy her some flowers, or her favorite chocolate to show her I care?”
(In my head I respond: Why should she give you a bomb ass blow job, or take care of any of your needs on the daily?) (Just a reminder men, you can get a nice bouquet of flowers for like $20 and you’ll both be happy.)
Some men STILL see nothing wrong with going days with out talking to her, with going out and not bothering with her, with forgetting to call back/or replying to a text that takes 2 FREAKEN SECONDS. They see nothing wrong with not reminding her they care, and get annoyed when she “complains” about what she’s missing.
Now I get it some men lack the romance bone, but if you have a good woman effort is ALWAYS noticed!
If you have a woman who wakes you up to take care of your needs, who pays attention, and who makes effort, just rememeber that expectations are usually that you return the care and love.
A woman doesn’t ask for attention because she’s “needy” or wants you to be like a puppy dog at her feet ready to bark when she calls. (At least not all women)
She longs for that late night call or morning call because it tells her you’re thinking about her.
She squirms at the little details and surprises because it reminds her you care and she’s been on your mind.
She blushes at the kisses on the four head, the kiss on the hand when your driving, and the smack on her ass when she walks by because it tells her you desire her.
She sighs at the gentleman gestures like opening the door, holding her hand, and holding her close because it tells her you want to protect her.
If she’s asking for these things and you are not doing them, it’s not that she is being “needy” or “annoying.”
Don’t you get it? She cares a shit load about you!
It’s that you’re the man that holds her heart, you’re the man she wants, and so she just wants to feel wanted TOO.
It’s honestly very simple, and if you’re not doing it because your intentions are not to be her lover and or protector than step aside already and let another man take over.
This goes both ways ladies!
If you want flowers, take care of your man, make him feel wanted too.
-Kbeautifulmind
He made her smile from ear to ear.
Her heart beat pulsing faster when she saw him.
His touch making her tremble everytime.
He made her happy, all the time.
-Kbeautifulmind
How can you belong to someone for so long, and then walk away like you’ve never known the feeling of their lips and hands tracing your naked body?
-Kbeautifulmind
A relationship is still a relationship no matter the title.
Once two people bind their souls, minds, and bodies to start to build something it has a beginning.
Therefor when the end comes, the title you had or didn’t have won’t change the fact that one of you will be hurting.
-Kbeautifulmind
I’d like to start by saying thank you, thank you for loving me.
I know by your side I’d have paradise, you’re the perfect guy.
But in his hell, he has made me fall.
I tried to resist, because I know he isn’t good for me.
But to me he is perfect, he is who my heart beats for.
It will be work, it will take time, but I love him.
I tried, I tried to love you.
My mind knows you’re better for me, but my heart wants otherwise.
I’m sorry.
-Kbeautifulmind
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