I do not know my path in this life, and I am done trying to figure it out.
But, I am in recognition of my goals and dreams, therefore I choose to let them be my guidance.
-Kbeautifulmind
I do not know my path in this life, and I am done trying to figure it out.
But, I am in recognition of my goals and dreams, therefore I choose to let them be my guidance.
-Kbeautifulmind
True capacity of living
When you have come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have reached the true capacity of living.
You have found that that the external forces of this world are irrelevant, and completely out of your control.
You have found that they do not bring or create your internal happiness.
You have found that only you can decide what you make of this life, and how far you are willing to go to succeed and accomplish all of your dreams.
You have found that you are enough and do not acquire anything to feel complete.
When you have come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have come to realize that you are free from expectations or desires to be able to live.
When you come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have reached the true capacity of living…
and you are now complete.
-Kbeautifulmind
Good love
At the end of the day all we want is good love.
A love so charismatic, that it throws you off guard because you can’t even explain the feelings you are getting.
A love connection so pure, that just being in the presence of the person you feel at home.
A love so unique, that nothing or anyone could distract the value this person holds in your life.
A love so deep, that the cells in your body recognize the touch, voice, and smell of the person and you can’t seem to get your excited body, mind, and soul to simmer down.
A love bond so strong, that anything life throws at you…
ANYTHING,
feels so little,
and so meaningless.
Because this person, this unique soul…
this good love is so deep, that it’s absolutely irreplaceable.
-Kbeautifulmind
I could sleep with you, I could.
I could sleep with you, I could.
I could kiss you, and get a taste of your delicious tongue as it unravels in my mouth and plays along with mine.
I could tear your shirt off of your body with out anticipation where beneath just lays another human body.
I could rip off your pants with the guts the alcohol has helped me build and pleasure you like you’ve never been pleasured before.
I could sleep with you, I could.
I could have your head wrapped around my legs and have you pleasure me, and if you’re any good allowing you to see my body lose it’s self with your touch.
I could let you inside of me, as our naked bodies move to different beats until we climax.
I could sleep with you, I could.
But, I’m not looking for someone to just sleep with.
I want someone worth knowing, someone I could lay it all on the line for and take a chance with.
I could sleep with you, I could.
But, then again…
I could sleep with anyone.
-Kbeautifulmind
What is Chemistry?
Ever kissed someone and felt like the world stopped right in your tracks?
A feeling so deep that feels as if there has been some kind of chemistry you’ve never felt before?
OR…
Ever kiss someone that could be perfect for you. You seem to have so much in common with the person, and they are the ideal person you want to build a future with but, all you feel is sexual excitement? As if anyone else could give you that feeling because you are just horny? Not exactly a connection?
I’m sure most of you have answered yes to both of them.
My friend and I were talking about Chemistry between two people and the difference of it with soul recognition. We wondered how exactly that worked and if maybe we are too picky as we are both people that wish to find the person that makes us feel a unique chemistry as well as comes along and excites our soul.
So it got me thinking, and asking myself…
“Kelsey, have you met any one of your soul mates?”
I’m honestly not sure if I have.
and if I have, the only person closed to being one of my soul mates was my H.S sweet heart.
But if my ex-boyfriend wasn’t my soulmate, what was he?
and… what was the guy I dated after him that gave me similar feelings as I had once felt with my first boyfriend, but even better.
and… Why would I feel that way if him and I weren’t anything serious?
and… why is it that any of the guys I’ve dated and talked to since, can’t seem to make me feel the same?
Could I be shutting down and not allowing the feelings?
or
is there really no chemistry at all?
My mom use to tell me that we have three soul mates in this life…
My friend agrees.
I also heard from a man once… “Every man gets three great women in his life. One of them is usually his mother, so if he’s already had one good one, he better not screw it up with the next one because she could be the last one.”
So, what exactly is chemistry?
well, weather you believe in soul mates or not…
I’ve come to discover, that I believe that when souls recognize each other, thats what makes the chemistry.
I believe that maybe you do have a couple of soul mates and that not all of them are technically put in your life for sexual/romantic relationships.
You see, chemistry is important.
It’s indescribable.
You can feel it when you meet someone and like them, no matter the gender and “how” it is that you like them, and you can feel it when you don’t like someone or can’t seem to stand the person at all.
Therefor,
I believe that chemistry IS soul recognition.
Our souls were meant to recognize certain people with an importance that tells your body and mind “this person is one of us, this person would be good for our life.”
Chemistry is what makes these magical moments. It’s beautiful, wonderful, and uncontrollable.
You can’t fabricate it…
It’s what makes that kiss feel like the world has stopped in your tracks.
A feeling so deep and full of chemistry because you were meant to connect with that person in this life time…
So how could you be meant to only feel that three whole times in your life?
In my belief … Impossible.
-Kbeautifulmind
2015
Two Thousand-Fifteen is coming to an end, and as most of us agree things could have been better. We always sit there at the end of the year and say “New Year please be good to me, please be better.” However, did you take the time to reflect? Did you accomplish your goals and resolutions? And if not, why? And how are you going to make sure that doesn’t happen again?
We must remember that nothing can ever be perfect and we must appreciate what we did get out of the previous year, before we start asking for more or “better.”
I can honestly say 2015 was as amazing and as intense as the year could have been.
So many things have changed: My perspectives, my goals, my dreams, my desires, my relationships, my mentality, my feelings, and the people in my life.
I started the year with certain goals, dreams, and perspectives and some have changed as some continue to stay the same. Many were accomplished and/or are close to being accomplished as we enter the new year. I finally began new projects I had been wanting to for so long and I can not wait till I am done and see the final results.
My desires have definitely grown as I’ve found personal growth within my self. I am a lot more satasfied and confident with my body and soul.
I learned that days will be rough but, I must finish everyday and be done with it, and when that doesn’t work… a good laugh or long sleep can cure anything.
My relationships haven’t changed too much. I started the year with certain important people by my side and all of them are still here. I made some new friends, some which didn’t stick it through but others who I can tell are here to stay. I continued to be humble and grateful for all the love and support I receive, and I’ve learned to not take those that have been good to me for granted because I know how lucky I am to have them in my life.
I didn’t find strong love that happened to change my romantic relationship status. (Still single and mingling, lol maybe not the mingling part) However, I did meet people that helped me see that even at 25 you can still feel butter flies and pure happiness. I learned that nothing is forever or will workout the way you hoped but, enjoying the moment is just as fun and pleasurable and memories will always live on. I learned that everyone has a purpose as they entered your life, and if they aren’t here to stay is because one of you had to learn something from the other one.
Most importantly, I learned to fully heal from the scars that had been caused by the past and I’m learning to know exactly what I want and will not accept. I met people that made the cells in my body jump with excitement by just a simple touch, and I have decided I never want to settle for any other feeling than that one. I learned that feelings aren’t reciprocal and thats okay, for the worth you saw in someone, someone else will see in you someday.
I’ve made my peace with everything and everyone, and I found closure myself and within myself which was the most important successful achievements of them all.
I’m not angry at the end of this year, nor do I have any resentments; I’m simply grateful for everything and everyone that have helped me learn and grow so much.
Over the last year, I have finally learned how to become the higher version of myself. I realized that happiness and comfort is something internal and eternal forces should not be depended on for my comfort or happiness.
Over the last year, I finally understood.
-Kbeautifulmind
My Tradition
When I was ten years old my mother and I started a personal new years eve tradition.
I got the idea from a show, I had seen some episode where a lady wrote a letter to her future self every year on her birthday.
I figured it be something we can do together, so my mom and I chose New Years Eve.
Along with the red underwear, and the money under the shoe; My mom and I added a third tradition to our list.
We began by reading our letter we wrote the last New Year’s Eve a couple days before.
We gave each other a couple of days to reflect, then on New Year’s Eve we wrote a new one Titling it “Open in (enter new year here)”
I knew where my mom kept hers last year so I had to open both hers and mines right before 2015 rang in.
My mom like always was such a positive soul, as she hoped that the new year didn’t bring her death.
Unfortunately, it did not workout that way. God needed another angel and her work here on earth was done.
I read both of our letters and continued my tradition on my own.
A couple of days ago I read my letter where I held my New Year resolutions, words of advise, and a couple of “To-do’s” and “Not to-do’s.”
One of my favorites were:
“Let other’s speak”
I tend to get excited when I am having a interesting conversation and I cut people off (not on purpose though.)
“Be careful who you trust”
I tend to have the issue of trusting just anyone and can sometimes put myself in danger do to this but, that has definitely changed.
“Don’t give up on love, continue to believe in it but don’t be an idiot either.”
That last one was funny!
I tend to have such a naive heart at times. I always want to see the good in everyone.
Anyway, I found to discover that I achieved almost all of my New Year resolutions, I followed most of my words of advise and for the most part most of my to-do’s and not to-do’s. But, most importantly I lived this year. I discovered myself, I enjoyed the moments, and I learned to accept and let go when I had no control over the situation.
I’m really excited to see how much I have accomplished and will be accomplishing in 2016.
My blog has also succeeded tremendously and I’d like to thank all my readers and supporters for that!
Thank you all!
-Kbeautifulmind
December hasn’t changed…
December hasn’t changed, it all still looks the same.
They still light the trees, and there is Christmas music everywhere.
There’s red, white, and green shining in every corner, and the people still look “crazier than ever.”
But, I wish you were here…
And I wonder what Christmas in heaven is like?
Here on earth it feels like everything good is missing since you left.
It all looks the same, nothing has changed but, there’s an emptiness.
The spirit is there, it just doesn’t feel as strong and my joy varies depending on the day.
They still make midnight mass as beautiful as ever, and the choir sounds magnificent just as you’d remember.
But, I wish you were here…
And I wonder what Christmas in heaven is like?
I hope you’re singing in the angel’s choir, and enjoying the presence of our dear lord saviors child.
I’ll bet you’re enjoying Christmas carols with your friends and father.
and I’m sure you decorated a fabulous tree, and made a pretty mean feast.
December hasn’t changed, it all still looks the same.
But, I wish you were here…
And I wonder what Christmas in heaven is like?
-Kbeautifulmind
This Holiday Season…
This Holiday season, we must remember to be gratful for all of our blessings.
Don’t let the gifts and material goods allow you to forget the original meaning of Christmas.
Remember to thank the man upstairs for all you have been privileged with.
Tis the season to remember that we can’t always have what we want, we can’t always have what we wish for but, we can be content with what we have.
-Kbeautifulmind

