Category: Inspiration through my personal life

Question from one of my readers

“What’s the scariest thing you have learned from this life?”

That nothing is forever.

And from this I’ve learned that a moment of happiness might only be for that moment, and you must accept that there is a high chance that you will never feel it again.

-Kbeautifulmind

-Kbeautifulmind

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I am not your mother and I can’t be your sister, but I promise you baby girl I’ll always be your friend.
I promise to always love you and make you laugh the best that I can.
I will listen to you when you want me to, and advise you when you ask for it.
I will do my best to encourage you to do good, and show you that I believe in you.
I will share my knowledge of life with you, and will always be by your side to cheer for you.
I will understand you like a mother,
I will be here for you like a sister,
But most of all I will love you like a friend.
I am your auntie, and I will love you forever and always.
-Kbeautifulmind

Isn’t it crazy?

My mom, my family, my friends, and lovers, they’ve always praised it.
What you ask?
Well my big heart.
They’ve always told me that having such a heart was a privilege to have, a unique gift in deed.
My mother would say…
Being nice will always bring you good karma.
People will always envy your strenght and courage, because they know that even when times are bad you’ll always come out on top.
My family would say…
We love how you don’t fight for the pointless things, you always let things go and let god take care of what you can’t control.
My friends would say…
You’re always here when we need you, and you listen to our thoughts.
You are caring, you go the extra mile and you always try.
You’re a shoulder to lean on, when someone needs to cry.
My lovers would say…
You are so compassionate, and you believe in (me.)
You don’t give up, and you fight for the both of us.
You don’t hold grudges and you truly forgive.
You give so many chances, and still trust in thee.
All these things were nice to hear, and I know it benefit them all…
But why wasn’t anyone ever honest with me?
Why didn’t they say that being this way would also affect me in deed?
People know how to take advantage of me, assuming I’ll always be “okay,” because I am strong.
Why didn’t they tell me that being nice would bring me more tears than smiles, pretty rainbows, and graceful love?
Why didn’t they tell me that wearing my heart on my sleeve would get me hurt, for the most part?
Why didn’t they warn me, that people would always know that it was the perfect weapon they could use against me?
Isn’t it crazy?
That no one could tell me that what they loved so much about me, is the one thing that would destroy me?
and this was something they all knew…
-Kbeautifulmind

The thing about me is that I don’t care if something doesn’t come easy. I’ve always had to work hard for everything in my life, so I accept the challenge.
But if it seems like I’ll be ending at a dead end…
I rather stop on my track and turn around before I get stuck.
That’s just setting yourself up.
I’ve learned this the hard way.
-Kbeautifulmind

Spread positivity

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You are not on this earth to understand why everything happens, or to figure out if what you believe in is real. The more you stress it, the less you’ll know. The more you worry the less happiness you allow in, and the more you expect the more disappointment you’ll find.
You are here to live and be happy with the now, to love unconditionally, to make a difference and spread positivity, and to accept that nothing lasts forever.
If you let life take its course and focus on being happy, everything else will work it’s self out.

-Kbeautifulmind

Milestone

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Every year is a milestone, around this time last year I was so unhappy with my life and my self.
I couldn’t understand why life took the turns it did, and why I no longer had my best friend by my side. I believed in people who didn’t believe in me, and I got comfortable with discomfort. I lost myself on my road to happiness, and followed the path of destroying myself, for the chance of pleasing others.
I’ve always been a “planner,” almost never missing a deadline of what I set myself out to do. Therefor disappointment is something I don’t take very lightly and when things don’t work out my way, I always end up very mad at myself.

However, every year is a milestone…
and this year has taught me so, so much, I am forever grateful.
Thanks to the past, I am off my fairytale horse and I’ve never felt more satasfied, alive, and happy🌻

Like a Butterfly

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You tuck me in, turn out the lights,
kept me safe and sound at night,
little girls depend on things like that.
You taught me how to dress myself, and almost always combed my hair, helped build my self-esteem and helped me build a heart that cares.
You had to deal with my funny moods, but calmed me down before I turned blue, reminding me that I would be alright.
You were always there when I looked back, the two of us made quite a team, never did I think we’d ever be separated quite so fast.
You had to do it all alone, a single mom who had to make a living and make a home.
It must have been as hard as it could be, but even through all the struggles and hard times, you kept a smile on your face not letting us see how much of you life would take.
And when I couldn’t sleep at night, scared things wouldn’t turn out right
you would hold my hand and simply tell me…
“Just like caterpillar in the trees, how you wonder who you’ll be, but with time you will see.
Don’t you worry, hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a time, where like a butterfly you will also spread your wings.”
-Kbeautifulmind