True capacity of living

When you have come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have reached the true capacity of living.

You have found that that the external forces of this world are irrelevant, and completely out of your control.

You have found that they do not bring or create your internal happiness.

You have found that only you can decide what you make of this life, and how far you are willing to go to succeed and accomplish all of your dreams.

You have found that you are enough and do not acquire anything to feel complete.

When you have come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have come to realize that you are free from expectations or desires to be able to live.

When you come to realize that your happiness is internal, you have reached the true capacity of living…

and you are now complete.




Good love

At the end of the day all we want is good love.

A love so charismatic, that it throws you off guard because you can’t even explain the feelings you are getting.

A love connection so pure, that just being in the presence of the person you feel at home.

A love so unique, that nothing or anyone could distract the value this person holds in your life.

A love so deep, that the cells in your body recognize the touch, voice, and smell of the person and you can’t seem to get your excited body, mind, and soul to simmer down.

A love bond so strong, that anything life throws at you…


feels so little,

and so meaningless.

Because this person, this unique soul…

this good love is so deep, that it’s absolutely irreplaceable.



I could sleep with you, I could.

I could sleep with you, I could.

I could kiss you, and get a taste of your delicious tongue as it unravels in my mouth and plays along with mine.

I could tear your shirt off of your body with out anticipation where beneath just lays another human body.

I could rip off your pants with the guts the alcohol has helped me build and pleasure you like you’ve never been pleasured before.

I could sleep with you, I could.

I could have your head wrapped around my legs and have you pleasure me,  and if you’re any good allowing you to see my body lose it’s self with your touch.

I could let you inside of me, as our naked bodies move to different beats until we climax.

I could sleep with you, I could.

But, I’m not looking for someone to just sleep with.

I want someone worth knowing, someone I could lay it all on the line for and take a chance with.

I could sleep with you, I could.

But, then again…

I could sleep with anyone.


What is Chemistry?

Ever kissed someone and felt like the world stopped right in your tracks?

A feeling so deep that feels as if there has been some kind of chemistry you’ve never felt before?


Ever kiss someone that could be perfect for you. You seem to have so much in common with the person, and they are the ideal person you want to build a future with but, all you feel is sexual excitement? As if anyone else could give you that feeling because you are just horny? Not exactly a connection?

I’m sure most of you have answered yes to both of them.

My friend and I were talking about Chemistry between two people and the difference of it with soul recognition. We wondered how exactly that worked and if maybe we are too picky as we are both people that wish to find the person that makes us feel a unique chemistry as well as comes along and excites our soul.

So it got me thinking, and asking myself…

“Kelsey, have you met any one of your soul mates?”

I’m honestly not sure if I have.

and if I have, the only person closed to being one of my soul mates was my H.S sweet heart.

But if my ex-boyfriend wasn’t my soulmate, what was he?

and… what was the guy I dated after him that gave me similar feelings as I had once felt with my first boyfriend, but even better.

and… Why would I feel that way if him and I weren’t anything serious?

and… why is it that any of the guys I’ve dated and talked to since, can’t seem to make me feel the same?

Could I be shutting down and not allowing the feelings?


is there really no chemistry at all?

My mom use to tell me that we have three soul mates in this life…

My friend agrees.

I also heard from a man once… “Every man gets three great women in his life. One of them is usually his mother, so if he’s already had one good one, he better not screw it up with the next one because she could be the last one.”

So, what exactly is chemistry?

well, weather you believe in soul mates or not…

I’ve come to discover, that I believe that when souls recognize each other, thats what makes the chemistry.

I believe that maybe you do have a couple of soul mates and that not all of them are technically put in your life for sexual/romantic relationships.

You see, chemistry is important.

It’s indescribable.

You can feel it when you meet someone and like them, no matter the gender and “how” it is that you like them, and you can feel it when you don’t like someone or can’t seem to stand the person at all.


I believe that chemistry IS soul recognition.

Our souls were meant to recognize certain people with an importance that tells your body and mind “this person is one of us, this person would be good for our life.”

Chemistry is what makes these magical moments. It’s beautiful, wonderful, and uncontrollable.

You can’t fabricate it…

It’s what makes that kiss feel like the world has stopped in your tracks.

A feeling so deep and full of chemistry because you were meant to connect with that person in this life time…

So how could you be meant to only feel that three whole times in your life?

In my belief … Impossible.